Dreamz

好久了！

2010-06-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

都快将这里个遗忘了！><
最近忙碌于思考未来的方向
已经做好了决定
得到了好多人的支持
但,
唯独只有你们仍然不认同我...

也许是自己有些些的自私,
我真的好想好想到外头走一走
不想一辈子只留在这里
或许
我会受伤,会失败
但我相信只有经历了这一切我才能够更加坚定
梦想之在我眼前啊...
只需你们点头,
我才能毫不犹豫
毫无负担及罪恶的向梦想前进...

成绩不好的我本来不可能有这种机会...
笔试时真的没有把握会得到~
也许真的是老天给我的一个机会
若我真的错过了
那一辈子的遗憾感会纠缠着我不放的...
真的希望你们能懂~

><*#

2010-04-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

SO WHAT IF THERE IS A CASE BEFOREHAND!
HALO!
I SPEAKING ABOUT 2 INDIVIDUALS!
AM I NOT ALLOW TO MAKE MY OWN CHOICE !
EVEN IF I NOT GONNA MAKE IT,
IT WILL BE MY PROBLEM THEN!
STOP COMPARING 2 INDIVIDUALS of DIFFERENT CHARACTERS!
%^&^*^&%@#@@$#%^..........

WHY MUST U PEOPLE CREATE SO MANY THINGS FOR ME!
I ALMOST CAN PERSUADE THEM TO LET IN.......
DAMN IT!
DAMN IT!
FEEL DAMN FRUSTRATED NOW!

你笑了；我哭了

2010-04-02T23:16:00.004+08:00

放手~
好难。。。
回忆终究只能是回忆？
是否会回到大家的身边？

路，
不是我们想象中那么的平坦。
规划，
终会有变数，即使再如何努力的防备。
梦，
总有破灭的一天。
愿，
只能藏于心底，幻想着兑现的那一天。
情谊，
会有淡去的一天，
天下无不散之宴席。。。
坚持，
终究会有软化的时刻。
忍耐，
总有一个限度。

。
。
。
。

一切的一切
毫不真实~
但愿你开心就好，健康就好。。。
其余的让大家为你操心，为你扛下。。。
再大的苦难都会随时间而消逝；
彩虹在大雨过后总会出现。

SUPER SHOW2

2010-03-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

well well,
i was officially back from SJ SUPERSHOW 2 for abot 1 week~
an incredible liveshow that I actually went for and an incredible experience i'd gotten XD

SUPER SHOW 2 in MALAYSIA 2010(DAY1)

I arrived in KL on the 19th March together with the SG ELF,
it took about 4 hours of the coach ride,
was totally excited throughout the journey as they were playing SHOW 1 DVD on the bus~
Although i was damn tired , i was not able to sleep.
We checked into our hotel at about 2 to 3 +pm.
Sincethe hotel that SJ members stayed were near ours( 7 min walk),
so me and yiwei accompanied by 2 new friends met on that day,
walked to their hotel,
hopefully able to catch a glimpse of the members.
We waited for about 2 to 3 hours at the lobby,
and more of the fans actually gathered there.
There were also many FALSE ALARMs about their arrival during our waiting time.
The 4 of us almost missed the chance of seeing them on that day as SJ actualloy entered the hotel by the side door.
Luckily, when they about to set off for their rehearsal, we managed to
squeezed into the crowd and I was really lucky enough to see a few members.
Heechul oppa was the closest person i saw,
and from far, i saw Eunhyuk oppa, Eeteuk oppa,
Henry, Donghae oppa~
I didn't realised that I actually managed to record some of them into my video
and was totally surprise to see that Ryeowook oppa was in there too^^
It was kind of a crazy experience....blocked by securities...squeezed into a group of crazy fans
who were actually shouting n yelling for their fav members...

After all the squeezing n pushing, the 4 of us went for a dinner at a shopping mall~
then we proceed back to hotel so Yiwei n I can rest a bit before the queue up session....
at about 10.30pm, yiwei n I took a cab from hotel to the stadium,
almost thought we gt cheated as we were damn not familiarised with KL.
Even though we arrived at the stadium,
we were required to walk to the actual place where concert was held.
On our way in search of the place, we met some Msia ELF who were also
going to the stadium...so lucky of us :p
so ended up, there are 5 of us (all gals) walking in the dark at about 11.30pm
at Putra Jalil stadium wanting to find our direction to the concert hall.
When we actually reached the carpark for us to queue up, it was already 12am,
well~ended up realising there were already quite a number of fans waiting already.
As we bought the rock pitt ticket, it will be necessary to BOOK a good place to stand,
so we joined in the queue with some SG ELF. There were a few China ELFs in front of us,
and Thai ELFs behind us.
We sat throughout the whole night,cannot do anything
cuz is pitched dark.
I took some sleep lar...
first time in my life sleeping outside a concert hall...erm...
unlike Camping, is somehow or rather a weird experience.haha :x
will get killed if it was known by my parents and yiwei's mom...haha
We queue for about 6 hrs or 7 hrs before the next batch came in to take our place...
so we went back to hotel to take breakfast, shower n SLEEP !

SUPER SHOW 2 in MALAYSIA 2010(DAY2)-concert day

Expected us to wake up in the afternoon for a bit of food before proceeding to the
concert hall again, but was too TIRED n so we did not have the choice but to empty our stomach and rush to join in with the SG ELF to take the coach to the stadium.
It was about 3pm when we arrived.
There were a lot of people there...
some were queuing for merchandises,
some were busy exploring the place to put banners( or to show off rather)...
haha
saw a banner with a big sign:HYUK lov HAE!(lol)..
the banners were really big n interesting.
Unable to take it as there were too MANY PEOPLE,
i totally did not move a bit to other place to search for food or toilet(lucky i wasn't that urgent :P),
so i totally sat at the queue waiting for the entrance into the hall.
It was like 3-4 hrs of wait..but time pass by really fast...
there were commotions n happenings while we were queuing.
we also chatted with some of the SG ELFs members to pass time,
so it wasn't really that bored.
6pm~
1 hour more to the show....
the door finally OPENED!
we were damn excited...
I almost can't get into the hall due to the CAMERA!
lol
but then i used a bit of wits lar,
cuz the security wasn't really that tight...
n i managed to sneaked myself n MY 2 cameras in...
yahoo~! ><

The rock pitt was really damned empty when I was inside the main hall~
thanks to our efforts!
lol.
Less than about half n hour, the rock pitt gradually
was filled up...
it wasn't that fun when so many ppl were squeezing you hoping to replace
your position which was just BESIDE THE STAGE!
we waited n waited~
sang some songs which were played damn soft that only the rock pitt ppl can hear...
chanting....
waiting...
jeering....(false alarm)
chanting....
chatting...
exclaiming....
erm...some quarelling(obviously is not me)... :p
haha
FINALLY at 8pm sharp.......
the stage light went off....
I was TOTALLY AMAZED!
the sea of saphhire blue which i could only view on photos by fan
were RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME...
although it was not entirely perfect....
but it was really PRETTY!
unable to express my feeling when i saw that sea of blue...
Then VCR was being played.
the crowd was getting high...
screams n exclamations were heard when SUPER JUNIOR members
apperaed in the VCR...
Music started...
A MAN IN LOVE
was expecting them to come out from main stage...
but
to our surprise...to everyone surprise...
MEMBERS were apperaing from different entrance from the audience seats.
Suddenly a lot of commotions and Excitement were followed on...
and I was yet to get ready , Eunhyuk was right infront of US or i can say infront of ME dancing...
damn charismatic, can't take my eyes off him...
haha
members were gathering at the main stage...singing n dacing
....too chaotic le when members were walking pass the us to the main stage....
Fans were literally pushing in front....:p
SUJU then continued their performances by running around the stage with songs...
( erm Msia concert was kind of unique as they seemed to change some of the songs they sang)
The mood was being up...ppl were gettin higher n higher...
after all these fast n dance songs,
it is time for SOLO...
the most memorable solo were Eetuek oppa and Donghae oppa ~
Heechul oppa 's solo really is cool...
he is really PRETTY...
the performances were really great
throughout the show,
My favourite was KRY+ Sungmin 's
i 'm totally impressed by KRY's live....
their vocals were damn impeccable.
LOVE YESUNGIE~ ><
hehe...
they also sang Shining star,
whereby ELFs turned on their white torch
making the whole stadium glittering with bright white lights
just like stars.
as usual, Eeteuk oppa cried><...
oppa~ uljima(lol)
the rest of the members were enjoying themselves.
Sungmin was incredible...
he went to the audience to get 5 of the torches and wore it on his fingers
and also SHOWING OFF! lol
he is really cute...(although his hair is...):x
Kyuhyun sat at the stage near rock pitt A,
was able to see him very close up,
he also wore a torch while singing.
while he was singing, someone actually threw a sweet to him
but when he opend up to EAT,
A LOT of SWEETS were FLYING towards him...lol
hopefully he was not being hit...
n after the song, he threw his torch off the stage...
can imagine lar...many ppl fighting for it><
haha

when SUPER JUNIOR M was out,
there was really a lot of cheers and loves given to Zhoumi n Henry.
The 2 of them were really feeling appreciative from their expression.
It must be one of their memorable performances after the Shanghai's concert incident.
They sang the n performed<>
there was really something missing in their performance...
HanKyung was not with them... :(
Henry solo was really superb...his dance is not as bad as the 4 dances in SUJU,
but i prefer his violin performance during Heechul's solo.><
after a few more songs,
was out...
haha...
I can't take my eyes off Ryeowook's oppa...
he is REALLY...REALLY BEAUTIFUL...
too bad he isn't a gal...
he is cute~
the performance was really a success as evryone was high.
was really interesting...
the hilarious musical by SUJU brought quite a lot of laughter...
Shindong oppa n Heechul oppa are cute...
still can rmb the scene which Eetuek came out ...haha
............
............
............
after their songs n dance,
the concert came to an end...
Finally it was the ENCORE
...
CARNIVAL...
i was busy blowing the bubbles...
n SUNGMIN came over to our side again....
he is SUPER DUPER cute when one of the admin of SG ELF handed him the whole box of the
bubble,
he was SHOCKED at first n then he determined not getting the box n
instead he took 1 of it
n started blowing~
the rest of the members were having fun...
the songs remind me of KANGIN oppa...
cuz it was written by him...

WATER GUN fight seems like a must to the members....
EUNHYUK aim was damn good lar...
i got shot by him twice...haish...was getting a bit wet only
but...
but...
afer one sip of the drink....
Shindong came over to pour the rest of his water at the crowd....
n thx to the pushing,
I got wet again....
my right shoulder sleeve was totally wet by the water n the water gun...
both at same place...><
but, it is OKAY!
lol
Siwon n heechul were at the other side of the stage,
i actually saw them having "war" with the fans...haha
it was like damn funny especially when they won the "FIGHT"...
a lot of items were being thrown off the stage during the encore
i almost caught something throw down by Eetuek ><
haish....damn sianz
lol
I saw the "violence" side of Eeteuk oppa...
he just torn apart the plastic cover of a bedroom shoes(well i dunno what is that called)
n took off his own shoe to try on that.The shoes was cute lar n he dance pajama party with the shoes.
I thought he will keep in but in the end he just kicked off the shoe to the audience...
again...
the audience are FIGHTING for the shoes again...
haha
The concert ended in a very high note...
everyone really enjoyed the concert n 3 hours was not enough...
They thank all the fans who were at the concert and also hope that they will visit
MALAYSIA for their supershow 3...
Eeteuk oppa also told us to wait for their fourth album~
they walked the entire concert hall thanking n bowing to the fans
...
it really made them feel like a humble rookie ...
treasuring every of their fans n supporters.
It was really unbearable to leave as we were not sastified....
but I will be waiting for their next show...
n hopefully by then
I could see 13 members on the stage...
together with Kibum oppa, Kangin oppa and also HanKyung oppa.....

Oppa~
jebal...
come back fast...
i want the 13 members stage...
although i may never get to see that....
but i will still wait for the miracle to happen...><

After the concert...
all i can say is that...
the members don't differ as much as what we see them on videos
I was feeling a bit fake when i saw them infront of me...haha
but the real them did carry the charisma which we can't see or feel when they are on videos.
Frankly speaking,
Yesung oppa did look a bit different,
he is more NICER LOOKING in real life,
much thinner .
SHINDONG oppa is NOT FAT AT ALL...lol
he just look a bit big size...
i dun consider that as FAT if u were to see him real as a person.><

LASTLY,
the concert was really a great one, n memorable for me as it was the 1st concert i ever attended.
if SHOW3 is starting,
i won't be hesistating to buy the tickets again...but i will try the no.seats ba...
rock pitt a bit....haha...too much experience le.
hopefully by then, more of their supporters will be able to go for the show 3.
I'm really anticipating more of their CP time....
haha
KANGTEUK
HANCHUL
EUNHAE........

SUPER SHOW 2 in MALAYSIA 2010(DAY3)

LAST DAY FOR us to be in KL.
i was totally worn up after the concert n slept throughout the whole night till the morn.
was suppose to check out the hotel at 12pm...
after a quick breakfast,
me n yiwei went for a walk as we still have some time before leaving...
when we passed by their hotel
fans were gathering there...
n also
because yiwei was disappointed as her Kyuhyun did not appear frequently in front of her,
we went up to wait for them again~
haish
there goes my last few hrs in KL....
we waited for a abt an hr and i had to DRAG yiwei off,
assuring her that we will come back after we load our stuff on the bus
...
so we walked back to hotel to check out again...
this time informing 2 of our new frens we going over to the hotel
so end up...
4 of us went to the hotel again
waioted for 45mins
but SJ still not out...
I, again had to DRAG yiwei off...
haha
too bad lar....
but still need go home...
As all of us were very tired ,
i slept a bit on the coach ...
so then drop off near segamat to buy some goodies back home...
n headed back to S'pore...
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郁闷~

2010-01-31T15:51:00.002+08:00

心情的起伏度还真大啊~
从没有心情到如此的纠结。。。
要的是什么已经不知道了~

也许时间会让人认清一切。。。
但愿，
祈求，
盼望。。。

呵呵~
感觉好悲哀
是为什么呢？

can't help wondering~

2010-01-27T11:42:00.003+08:00

somtimes things are just very unpredictable...
can't help but just wonder who is really true to you...

is sort of like an instinct, a feeling that surround you
telling you that ppl are hating or mocking at you.

Perhaps it is just that i'm too sensitive...
maybe it is just that i'm too annoying n irritating...
or is it myself which lack of the confidents to face this world?

i hated betrayal...
i hated lies...
i hated surprise...
i hated being fooled around...
i hated not to be able to predict...

always guessing,
always predicting,
always act b4 others can hurt me...
such always are really wearing me out...

i'm currently waiting...
waiting for a chance to escape from such reality...
waiting to live in my own promising world...

just
not to be hurt anymore

Finally~

2010-01-16T23:48:00.003+08:00

FINALLY
I'm able to realise one of my mini dreams...
can't wait for Mar 20
...
Super Junior
I'm coming....:P

must save up...$$$$

resolution~

2009-12-31T22:49:00.002+08:00

1hr10min more to a brand new 2010~

2009
bye~

新的一年即将来临
期待着2010年
真心希望会是一个充满欢笑与幸福的一年
大家要好好照顾自己，
姚健健康康的。。。
要保持笑容
不要再次流下任何一滴泪水。。。
即时要哭
也要是因为幸福而哭、
是为了快乐而哭泣。。。
希望新的一年里
事情都回顺顺利利、
圆圆满满。。。
我也必须变得更坚强、自信。。。
同时也希望自己能够融入即将来临的新体验，
无论是工作或是在学习上。。。
加油！

2009年
我在这儿
对你说声再见。。。
我所得的及我所失去的。。。
我曾经所流过的泪水及欢笑。。。
你们都回成为我的过去
会成为我的回忆。
一段珍贵的、重要的回忆！

13elieve~

2009-12-24T16:09:00.002+08:00

现在大家只能等待了~
虽然希望一切都只是一个谎言。。。
不久前还热切的希望13个人能够一直坚持下去
但，
现在想想
若真的是你们累了
那
别逞强
放手吧~
大家不会因此丢下你们的。。。
会让你们知道
即时
你们的放弃使得我们难过、伤心，
但，
当你们累了
回过头时，
你会发现大家一直都在。
就算不是以Super Junior的名义~
大家仍然会一直支持你们。

在很多年以后
相信一定还会有许多的人，
许多曾经很爱你们的人
会记得你们为大家所带来的震撼的舞台、
会记得你们所给予的感动的瞬间、
会记得你们为大家带来的欢笑、
会记得心疼你们的一切、
会记得为了你们而疯狂的举动。。。。。
大家会一直将这些回忆收藏在心底小小的角落里

希望你们会一直的幸福下去
健康的生活
并且快些找到自己的依靠

为此，
不会再坚持你们要永远地在一起，
不会再害怕你们会解散、会分离。。。
因为，
你们在这几年的活跃将会一直烙印在心底。

最后，
想说的依然是
加油！

也许...

2009-12-16T13:51:00.002+08:00

伪装很累很辛苦。。。
明明什么都懂
却不知道为什么不愿表态。。。
你们所说的每一句
我真的明白
自己所了解的比你们预期的气势来的多很多
也许不希望你们明白
也许希望有一朝你们能够自己发现
也许。。。
有好多不确定的也许

我所想要的就连自己也不清楚
视线在模糊中~
要的只有那么一点点
还是很多很多？
人的欲望到底有没有尽头
所愿的到底会不会实现。。。
我不知道。

=.=

2009-12-16T12:48:00.002+08:00

haiz....
after exam so boring!!!!!!
looking for job...
kena nag when staying at home~!!!!
.......................
.......................
.......................
DAMN IT!

My sis going Jap nxt yr April...
hehe
so cool~
but then so~
dun feel like going there actually
though is Japan!!!
maybe~
perphaps~
haiz....
i gt no mood to do anything
....
haiz

Boring~!!!!!!!

OMG!! ^^

2009-11-29T14:22:00.003+08:00

*all these pic are adapted from baidu tieba

isn't this grand!

pure sapphire blue~

can't help but to love it!

SJ forever!

^^

2009-11-25T22:51:00.003+08:00

^^
went to watch Gokusen :the movie with Beat n Tay together at Yishun GV
haha...
really enjoyed it...
the story is still almost the same as its series
still revolving abt the teacher loving her students and protecting them...
the start of the movie was really funny...
can't resist to laugh...
but coming to the end...
it is very motivating and encouraging...
sort of like making ppl having the urge of becoming a teacher...
haha

have sort of gotten out from the emo mood...
at least i'm able to laugh n enjoy my day^^
so ppl...
just stop worrying abt me ba...
is not easy to forget such things
so just give me a bit more time to regain myself...
but still i know
life moves on....
no matter how much i wan to revert it...
*sigh.....

starting to seek for job liao
in case gt nagging again
perhaps they just dun no what i've been through
but
i think is better to kp myself being preoccupied than having rest~
ya
imagination will run wild when I'm relaxing~

start to pick up books to read
erm
Twilight...
haha
i'm sort of like damn slow right?
yaya..i know....
just gotten the bk from beat today
n
within 2hrs...i've completed almost half of the bk...
should have requested for the 2nd bk too
haiz....

starts to kp a diary le
cuz have a gut feel that i should start to pen down my thoughts n feelings
...
nobody knows nor could they predict what will happen tml...
perphaps by penning them down
at least other will actually be able to know what is within me
n what have i yet to accomplish
even if i leave suddenly from this world...

not to scare u ppl ~
isn't it all just fated
Death is just part of our cycle...
it is just the time that matters...
it will really be great to learn to accept that very fact
never run away from it...
it actually help sometimes by learning that
cuz it really motivates one to strive for own happiness
sometime learn to live for yourself even though it seems selfish
relying too much on others will actually bring only pain n sufferings
always think positive
but not to fail to think of the future n consequences of all act that u performed
live with consciences...with dignity ...with pride

NEVER EVER HARM YOURSELF
OR BID GOODBYE WITHOUT WARNING
IT BRINGS PAIN TO THOSE WHO ARE LEFT BEHIND
..........
it really does~
belief me~
it is no as easy as it seems to have the wound heal
perphaps some are too longlasting
while some will leave behind a scar that could never be removed

认识生命

2009-11-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

失去了
得到了
是喜是悲
太乱了
不想弄明白
但
似乎一直在缠绕着我
患得患失的感觉真的很讨人厌
以为会到此为止
原以为
再次面临失去
会是很久以后的事了
但
太高估自己了~

时间它不会等人
更加不可能倒流
曾自己还在呼吸时
感受四周吧
尽情地享受每一刻
怀着感激的心情去度过每一天
因为
今天不知明天事
不要带着不该有的遗憾离开这世界
只向前看吧
不要再回首了
不要在徘徊不定了
锁定一个目标
一直一直的向前走
不要再给自己任何后悔的机会
千万不要再把“如果”、“想当初”。。。等垃圾词汇挂在嘴边了
认认真真地
把其他人不能享有的未来
一同抗下
同他们一起活下去。。。

一路好走~

2009-11-23T20:41:00.002+08:00

已经告诉自己要坚强了
昨天为了你
流了几乎一天的泪
想对你说句抱歉~
因为知道你应该会不喜欢
认识你是一种缘分
但，
只能怪着缘分太过短暂
不管如何
不知你会否听到或甚至看到
在这里
真的想对你说的是
很高兴能与你结为朋友
虽让不是一份很坚固的友谊
但
毕竟大家所拥有回忆真的很珍贵
好的与不好的都不重要了
因为真的无法再一起回味了

真的无法控制自己的眼泪
似乎感到它快留下来了~
但是
我会拼命的将它们收回的
我想要用笑容来送你
只想用笑容来祝福你
祝福你在那美丽的国度里永远的幸福
祝福你在那儿能一直开心的展现你的笑容
真切的祝福你

今生的缘分
其实还未了
我们会在相遇的
也许会需要时间
但
再次与你相遇的时候
要记得我哦
就好像我会永远将你放在心里的某一角落
当无助时
才会将我们一同的回忆拿出来回味
直到我再次与你相遇时
再次用这些回忆来“欺负”你
就如当年一样

会好好的过的
会好好珍惜与你的回忆的
会好好的认真的过着我的每一天的

所以
虽让我很不愿意
虽让我很舍不得
虽让我真的很不甘心
但
我还是只能说

再见我的朋友~
要一路的走好
好好照顾自己
期待与你再次的相见
请安息吧~

骗人的！一切都是。。。。。。！

2009-11-22T12:44:00.002+08:00

告诉我
只是同名同姓吧！
碰巧同一个组。。。
同岁而已！
。。。。。。。

我不要！
不要了！
为什么一直要面对失去！
我们还没来得及再联系啊！
本来想考完试后在叙旧的。。。
又再次的让我面对这项悲剧。。。
心好痛
好不甘
谁来告诉我。。。。

小时候的记忆
不断涌现。。。
欺负你的
枪我食物的
聚在一起说鬼故事的
一起玩的、闹的。。。
一起模拟的未来。。。
你说过要赚很多很多钱的啊！
但，
为何一切就如此的断了。。。
10年的缘分就此宣告破灭了。。。

还能在相信命运吗？
不知道了。。。
累了
倦了。。。
想要遗忘。。。
真希望只是一场噩梦。。。。

闷~

2009-11-22T00:44:00.002+08:00

歌曲拥有治疗心灵的效用
听着那一首又一首悦耳的歌曲
扣人心弦及优美的旋律
动人的歌声。。。
这才是真正的音乐^^

2009-11-19T22:38:00.001+08:00

wondering should change the background song><

无奈~

2009-11-19T22:07:00.004+08:00

时间过得还真是快
还剩下2天就脱离了^^
应该是开心的吧?
其实,担忧的心情是更多的
应该会满遭的~
但,付出了努力了
强求也不能改变一切
认真地祈祷吧...

不知道最近怎么了
做事情都没劲
有时还在想
那件事情所带来的后遗症到底有多大？
似乎无法估计
无法衡量...
连人带心的
都将所有的力气与精力都抽去了
~无力啊!

近日都没有东西能引起兴趣
毫无斗志的、毫无野心的
也许会一直如此的苟活吧~
ㅋㅋ
感觉自己好像上了年纪般
否则哪来这么多心得~

太高估自己了吗
还是看低了自己
还未找出一个明亮的出路呢
感觉仍是被扔弃在一片湿漉漉的黑洞里
挣扎着...呐喊着...堕落着...
会听到呼唤吧~
会见死不救吗?
祈祷有用吗?
一切能够挽救吗?

不知道
不知道
不知道!

那个曾经说过
奇迹不会从天而降,唯有努力才会获得奇迹的人
你在哪?
"回得来吗?"
好似不能了....怎么办?
继续躲藏吧....
继续当个鸵鸟吧~
逃吧!
远离这里吧...
但,
"放得下吗?"
矛盾吧~
><
终究还是人类啊~
害怕寂寞的脆弱的人类...
悲愤....
是自暴自弃了的说~

OMG!!!!! DAMN IT!

2009-11-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

have not been using comp for a while~
recently bz studying...
stress arghz!

just on this comp for like an hour
and almost gt "heart attack"~
OMG!
within this dunno how mny hrs
without looking at news of TVXQ...
i wonder how to tolerate it...
their news are over all kpop website...
news of them disbanding~
news of them breaking up~
OMG!!!
how can that be!
couldn't belief it!
TVXQ is one of the oni few bands
that i truly feel they have the potential
They are true singers than what we called idol!
they have great vocals
great dancers
great rappers
most imptly...great harmonization n TEAMWORK!

that interview!
damn it!
hope it was fake...!
how can that be~

5 yrs living tgt...
training n working tgt
shedding tears of joy n caring for one another
thru'out all these yrs
it is all just for show....
how abt their friendship?
JJ,JS n UKnow have known each other for so long
ever since trainee life....
hopefully all those news are fake~
they are still Together!

P.S: this is just my own opinion,take it or leave....

if those are for real,
just can't help wondering
....is it really true that relationship is just a burden
n not worth cherishing
why are there betrayal n hate in this world...
wondering wondering......

~always keep the faith
hopes till the end~

SJ加油！

2009-10-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

读了好多ELF的后记~
上海的演唱会真的有点让人失望~
为何呢？
难道大家真的都放弃了吗？
相信英云哥哥也不想的
最希望时间能够倒流的
应该也是他~

很多认识SJ的人都不太喜欢强仁
认为他很霸道、爱抢镜头、很懒散
但
事实上
在我的观点里
他只不过是脾气暴躁点。。。性格直爽点。。。
其实
他，很脆弱
否则为什么会在电台里哭诉
他，很敏感
害怕队友认为他做的不足
他，很坚强
明明不是老二
却默默地帮助队长分担工作
他，很有才华
歌声很独特
主持最在行
脑精动的很快。。。满脑子娱乐大家的点子
演技也在进步。。。
他，很细心
一直都在帮助队友，给予最大的支持
他，还有无数的优点
只能让细心与有耐心的人去挖掘

做为公众人物，
似乎都不能犯错。。。
大家好像只会针对错误做出判断
是否会想过他为了SJ曾经付出了多少
生病了、难过时、孤独时。。。
为了娱乐大众已让必须牵强的搞笑
不为求什么，只为了能够让大家更认识及爱SJ

只希望大家不要再重伤他了
不是在包庇他
而是他真的知道错了
同时
也会受到相对的处分。。。

支持SJ的人
我们必须理智
不要无为的与攻击他的人争吵
他现在只需要大家的支持与原谅
无论处分是什么
我们必须接受~
但，仍让不要放弃他~

希望英云哥哥能够快速回归~
希望他能够重新展开笑颜
少了他
SJ会失去许多欢乐。。。

金基范啊！
你也快回来吧！
SJ=13
少一人也不行！

累~

2009-10-24T20:47:00.002+08:00

不知道已经说了几遍
我真的好累
心灵上的累
已经消耗了许多精力

只剩下2个星期了
Haiz~

不久前
又接到了不好的消息~
今年已是第3次了吧~

小时候的回忆
毫不预警的涌现在脑海中
除了无奈
还是无奈~
抱歉没有去送您最后一程
感谢小时候对我的关爱与照顾
会带着小时候的回忆继续的走下去。。。
安息吧！

18的天空~

2009-10-15T23:43:00.003+08:00

2009年~
经历了人生中许多的挑战与无奈
笑、哭、厌倦、烦闷、痛苦、生气。。。
一一都经历过

这一年
有许多的特别。。。
特别的累
特别的悲哀
特别的苦
特别的经验
特别的收获。。。

18个年头
我的存在价值什么
我仍在找寻

感谢大家为我做的一切
感谢大家一路来的陪伴
感谢你们的支持。。。

其实
我所愿的很简单
不需要华丽的准备
不需要任何的惊喜
因为
在这一年里
突然领悟到
简单的快乐
就是希望你们都健康、幸福。

快乐追求不来
好无奈~
所以
希望自己能找到快乐的泉源。

大家要坚持到底~
加油！：）

Desire~

2009-10-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

想要的~
所追求的~
到最终
只是虚幻。。。

无欲
无求
快乐才会降临~

Once in a life time~

2009-09-25T23:05:00.005+08:00

Once in a lifetime-Shinhwa

Everyday I Pray to help me through the day
to make myself stronger...and I Pray

그 오랜 꿈들이 조금씩 다가와
눈앞에 펼쳐지는 지금

난 눈을 감고서 가슴 속으로 전해 오는
누군가의 기돌 듣고 있어

수많은 별들과 약속했던 모든 꿈들은
언젠간 이뤄진다고 믿어

땀과, 이 눈물과 소중한 사랑만 있다면
우린 무엇이든 해낼 수 있어

Once in a lifetime Fly to the star
별들이 너의 꿈을 지켜 줄 거야
Once in your lifetime 우리 그 날 위해
영원히 함께 만들어 가야 할
Love for your dreams

Yo! 슬프고 힘든 날들을 다 지나도록 해 OK
Open up your eyes to the sky
then you can find the way
for then better days
이제 우리 세상을 모두 같이 다 함께 할 수 있게

힘들면 쉬어가도 OK, yo 잠깐 Take a second
그 오랜 꿈,
수많은 Star I know that you can take it
함께라면 좀 더 날 거야 네꿈들은 passion,
It's all yours. There's no question

수많은 아픔을 견뎌냈던 모든 꿈들은
언젠간 돌아온다고 믿어

땀과, 이 열정과 소중한 사랑만 있다면
우린 무엇이든 될 거야

Once in a lifetime Fly to the star
별들이 너의 꿈을 지켜 줄 거야
Once in your lifetime 우리 그 날 위해
영원히 함께 만들어 가야 할
Love for your dreams

때론 삶에 지쳐 울지만(No, baby no more cry)
너의 힘이돼 줄게
(I'll pray for you and me tonight)
너를 닮은 별을 볼 수 있다면
나의 사랑도 말 할 거야

Once in a lifetime Fly to the star
별들이 너의 꿈을 지켜 줄 거야(지켜 줄 거야)
Once in your lifetime 우리 그 날 위해
영원히 함께 만들어 갈Everything for your dreams

Once in a lifetime Fly to the star
(Fly to the star)
영원히 너의 꿈을 기억할거야(기억할거야)
Once in your lifetime 우리 그 날 위해
영원히 함께 만들어 가야할
Love for your dreams

translation:

Everyday I Pray to help me through the day to
make myself stronger... and I Pray
Right now, the dreams I've longed for are slowly approaching and unfolding
When I close my eyes, I can hear someone's prayer entering my heart
I believe that all many promises I've made with the stars will come true one day
We can do anything if we sweat, and pay attention to those who are special to us

Once in a lifetime fly to the star. The stars will watch over your dreams
Once I your lifetime, for that day
Forever, we'll work together, so have love for your dreams

Try your best to overcome the upsetting and tough obstacles
Okay, open your eyes to the sky, then you canfind the way for the better days
Now we can live together in this world

When it's tough, you can rest. Okay, yo quickly take a second
The longed dream that the many stars know about, you can take it
It will be easier if we work gother
This dream of yours is filled with passion, it's all yours.
There's not question

I believe that all many promises I've made with the stars will come true one day
We can do anything if we sweat, and pay attention to those who are special to us

Once in a lifetime fly to the star. The stars will watch over your dreams
Once I your lifetime, for that day
Forever, we'll work together, so have love for your dreams

Even if we cry during our lives (No, baby no more cry)
I will be your strength (I'll pray for you and me tonight)
If you notice the stars that resemble you, then I will confess my love for you

Once in a lifetime fly to the star. The stars will watch over (watch over) your dreams
Once I your lifetime, for that day
Forever, we'll work together, so have love for your dreams

Once in a lifetime fly to the star (fly to the star), always remembering your dreams (remember your dreams)
Once I your lifetime, for that day
Forever, we'll work together, so have
Love for your dreams
lyrics extracted from:

http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/9596/shinhwa/once-in-a-lifetime.html

somehow or rather

just fell in love with this song...

is really a meaningful song

Time~

2009-09-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

38 more days to A level le...
wohoo...~
die liao lar....
it has been long since i wrote my entry in English
hahax
cuz they all say my blog turn very chinese le
too bad lar
i like :X

anw
today last prelim paper
think i 'm gonna be dead again
haix
Pau arghz pau....
when will u stop playing n FOCUS!!!
no time liao leh
START revising le lar!
haiz...haiz...haiz...

went to visit Jane again...
the distance this time
was actually not as long as the previous visit
cuz we were chatting along the way ba...
just went over to "chat" with her
hahax

SAW that Ms GOH at CWP
she good nia
lol
was with that **
hahax
always like that...
dun care her liao

birthday countdown...
20days..erm.....think so
haha

trust~

2009-09-21T17:44:00.002+08:00

信任值多少
不是我就不是我
那么一点点的新人都不能给予我吗？

算了吧~
也许真的无所谓了
对你们找一部报期待了
好似我只是一个工具
任由你们宰割。。。

彼岸花

2009-09-12T17:57:00.003+08:00

佛说彼岸，
无生无死，
无苦无悲，
无欲无求，
是个忘记一切悲苦的极乐世界。
而有种花，
超出三界之外，
不在五行之中，
生于弱水彼岸，
无茎无叶，
绚烂绯红，
佛说，那是彼岸花。

佛说，
彼岸花，
开一千年，落一千年，
花叶永不相见。
情不为因果，
缘注定生死。

彼岸花开开彼岸,奈何桥上可奈何
彼岸花开开彼岸,断肠草愁愁断肠！
忘川水流流忘川,彼岸花开开彼岸
彼岸花开开彼岸,此江船行行此江

boring ~

2009-09-05T18:01:00.003+08:00

假期到咯！
考试也到了！:(

大家要好好加油!!!
화이퉁!

人生如戏~

2009-09-01T00:31:00.002+08:00

人生如戏，戏如人生。。。。
懂得这句话的人很多
但，
真正晓得它的意义的人却不多

在现实生活中
每天每日
在世界各个不同的角落里
所播放的情景都不一样
人们所扮演的角色也随之而变换
同时
我们也无法预测变换何时会发生
它是否会是一个好的改变。。。

但
在戏里
剧情却是已经订好了
人物的发展不需预测
甚至
还能更改。。。

戏里也好
现实也罢
喜欢或在戏里或现实
我们都无从选择
勇敢的面对吧
无论是好是坏。。。

梦~

2009-08-31T23:38:00.003+08:00

梦想啊~
其实可以很简单
只是我们是否能够一直坚持下去。

还记得
那时在上幼儿园的我
幼儿园的老师就曾问过大家
“小朋友们。。。未来的你们想做什么？”
也许是无知。。。
也许真是诚心的
当其他人都回答医生、护士、老师等伟大的志愿时
我的回答竟是发型设计师。。。
老师似乎被我的答案吓倒了，
因此急忙的要我重新做多一次选择。。。
当时还小。。。
除了听令外
我也只能把疑问藏在心里。。。
“为什么呢？为何要我重做一次选择？明明是老师让我们说出自己的愿望的啊...”

小学二年级，
级任老师似乎也发了同样的问题。。。
当时刚生完孩子的她，
告诉了我们护士的工作十分的伟大。。。
本想对老师说我想做教师的念头又在次的白打断。。。

就这样，
我反反复复的一直重新寻找着自己的梦。。。
知道了某一天。

我重小就对画画很有兴趣
拿了一张纸
我便爱随意的涂鸦。。。

姐姐在中学时选修了画画为科目
在她中二那年，
考试的主题是服装设计。
无聊百般的我
最爱的似乎就是将自己所绘画的人物穿上漂亮的衣裳
所以在她做研究时也抽上一脚。
甚至在老师规定要阅读日记簿上也毫不客气地将自己的画给描绘出来。
当时的继任老师也是一名画画老师，
看了我的画后，在日记簿上也留了一个让我找到目标的梦。。。
她说我的画不错，为人物所塔佩的衣服好看。。。甚至对我说和不考虑向服装业发展。
是骄傲也好
是炫耀也罢
我将这件事与父母分享了
当时，妈妈还对我说不错啊，可以考虑等鼓励的字眼。。。
我当然兴奋啊。。。当然开心啊
重那瞬间起，
服装设计便是我的梦、我唯一向往的目标。。。

但，
现实是残酷的
梦想是可以被瓦解的。。。
选修课程那一年
我曾考虑向自己的目标迈进
却遭到了激烈的反对
只因为现实的社会正朝正科学发胀前进
而艺术被抛在后头。
为了自己的梦也不惜与家里的人争吵，
但我却失败了。
梦想维护不了了。。。
目标在同一时间消逝了。
瞬间，
脑袋一片空白。
从此，
努力只是为了成绩，赞赏而非自己的梦。

一年又一年的过去了
我仍在寻找属于我的另一片天。。。
直到现在当我回首往事时，
我才震惊的发现
当初的我是没有抱负及竞争能力的人。
年纪的增长只让我更彷徨失措
只希望时间可以一直地停留。
失去了梦想
就好像鸟儿失去了翅膀
不知道该如何的飞翔
完全失去了生存能力。。。
每一日过得毫无疑义。

虽然如此，
我依旧熬了过去。
现在的我
还没遗忘当初的梦想
它仍然强烈存在我的脑海里
但，
我必须接受它可能会是我正一辈子的遗憾。。。
我依然还在寻找
寻找着那属于我的领域。。。
也许我已经找到了、
也许只是我的错觉。。。

只希望自己今后说选择的路不会再让自己后悔、难受。。。
未来
谁也无法预测
只能一步一步地迈前

笑^^

2009-08-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

19岁咯！
生日快乐！
无论在哪一个国度
真心地为你献上祝福！

好好看着我们吧！
连同你的份量
一起加油
一起努力！
^^

默~

2009-08-08T23:00:00.003+08:00

远在另一个国度的你
感受到大家的心吧
痛过了、泪也流干泪、烦躁也正逐渐消逝。。。

今日看到的依旧是你那张笑脸
似乎在对我们无聊及不健康的话题做出回应
想对你说的、想与你分享的
并非只有那短短的几句

放心吧~
停留在这里的人
会依然思念你
带着拥有你的美好日子走下去
风雨再大，彩虹最终会出现
夜幕降临了，黎明会随之而来

你会好好的吧
带着我们的祝福、微笑、记忆
在另一个地方等待着相聚的那一天
也许会很久
但，在还没到达那一天之前
请带着你的温暖、你的欢乐、你的笑容
守护着大家吧！

pain~

2009-07-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

time will heal all wounds!

let us be strong!

pls take care!

感叹~

2009-07-21T11:31:00.002+08:00

天空真的很蓝~
虽然偶尔老天会发脾气
乎晴乎雨
但生命仍然是如此的珍贵、如此的完美
没有一帆风顺的道路
曲折的人生却带给我们每一人充分的挑战
越过了
我们便成功~

照着自己的目标
自己人生的方向
过自己想要的生活。。。。
失败谁没有过
痛苦只在一瞬间
带着失败的经历
痛苦的经验
大步的迈进吧~

18年的人生
真的很短暂
不知道
你是否后悔了~
那头儿没有我们、
你会寂寞吗？
事发太突然了。。。
想过周围的人没？
虽然面对同样困境。。。
我相信我会克服的
只因我的四周充满了爱、关心~
小小的困境打倒不了我的！
我坚信！
为了你，我们大家会好好的活下去。。。
连你的份也一起努力。。。
10年后的今天，
我们一定会笑着去见你~
一起将我们的荣耀与你分享~

一路走好~

2009-07-09T20:20:00.002+08:00

好奇怪~
感觉似乎来得很慢
不安与伤痛好似取代了惊讶
本想重温照片
但已被取下
泪水不由自主地模糊了视线
不知是在感叹生命的无常或是在为你的离去感到不舍
心在一瞬间隐隐作痛
相处时间虽短
交谈的话语不多
但缘分确实让我们相遇了。。。
我们称得上为朋友吧
但愿你在天国过得幸福
忘却尘世里所有承重的负担吧
珍重我的朋友~

突然觉得人类好渺小
四周都充满了无奈与未知数
是该实践自己的承诺了吧
别总是失去后再后悔
时间不会因为自己的停止
停留在原地徘徊倒不如向前进
或许没有一帆风顺的道路
或许没有平坦的街
但
守得云开见月明
一切都会好转
一切都会豁然开朗的
。。。

无聊的下午....

2009-05-13T15:19:00.002+08:00

太阳好大!!!
天气超热的说...
无聊啊, 无聊...
只能窝在学校到本世纪末9点出
不停的k书!
可恶的慧仪
还在唱歌!
还以为我是聋子
烦死了!!!!
哈哈!

sorry~

2009-05-09T23:57:00.002+08:00

long time never update my blog again~
just too lazy....:p

recently had been stress
and this will carry on till quite a while
if there is a sudden change in mood or wad so ever
pls pardon me
....

i think i really can't express myself well in Eng
but i 'm lazy to change to chin font
plus i must really improve on my language ...

anw....kind of getting serious le...
the title sorry was not placed becuz i long time
nv update post lar
but seriously wanted to apologize to some ppl who i really care...

hehe...
wondering should i name u all....

it has been a yr or so knowing all of u...
u are all special to me
but probably it doesn't really show right?
getting into a new environment...
knowing new ppl seemed to be a challenge
i do really know mny ppl
but oni a few were really so call friends
n u all are part of it

perphaps i'm just being selfish
my former sch frens seem much more impt to me
n i hang out with them more than u guys
n care more abt them...
however i think is becuz i do really treasure my friendship with them
5 yrs being tht with them wasn't really easy
we quarrel...we endure...we laugh n joke tgt
so it's hard to forget those time being with them
but it just end up just neglecting u all

this yr is a hard yr
we aren't tgt anymore
time spent with u all is even lesser
n i seem to neglect u all even more
is it really that i'm being selfish??
i'm truly sorry to all of u.....

i do treasure you all too~
n i'll make it up after this crucial yr...
pls pardon me...
n hopefully
all of us can get thru this time
n con't to strive n to achieve

jia you jia you!!!

呼吸困难。。。

2009-04-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

好久没有这种感觉了
好讨厌
也许压抑太久了
一瞬间的爆发把自己压得喘不过气了
可以逃吗？？
好想好想离开这世界
逃到无人知的地方
现在的我宛如一只困兽
拼命的在寻找出口
却也在伤害自己
但，
原以为自己已经麻痹了
却不以为然。。。
有谁能将我解救
在下去我快崩溃了！！！！！！！！！！！！

2009-04-09T22:03:00.002+08:00

是你
在那无声的夜里
闯入心思。。。

是回忆
不禁让我感叹
岁月的流逝。。。

是梦想
让人拥有了人生的目标
去奋斗、去努力。。。

若，

忘了你
忘了回忆
忘了梦想

是否人生还会过得充足
是否会深陷在迷茫失中去方向
是否会忘了周遭的一切。。。

好久不见！

2009-04-09T21:56:00.002+08:00

wow...
i wonder how long i 've not been updating my blog liao!
turning lazy le
sianx :X

common test over le
n haha
as expected
my result is horrendous nia
the worst i've ever gotten in my life
but over is over
...
no need come tell me all sort nice nice things
lol

Today PW result released!
got an A!!
didn't expect that
cuz was thinking a C or B is very good le!
haha

nth much to say le
gonna work extremely hard
n
score well for mid yr!
hopefully the result of my hradwork will pay off then
haha~
then can shock all teachers :P

加油！加油！

夜深人静

2009-02-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

外头正在下着雨...
滴答...滴答...的雨滴正在敲打着屋顶
今夜的夜放佛更加的黑暗...
不知为何
一阵寂寞感突然涌了上身...

random me!

2009-02-22T22:56:00.006+08:00

too long never post liao
haha
anw Common Test coming so i must study le
dun feel like the sch calling parents
so frm tml on must go home striaght n start mug

on fri
went cwp to celebrate tay's b'dae AGAIN!
lol
actually ulterior motive was to see the
Rainie yang...wang DOng Cheng...
but but
they damn late
so end up still never see them
oni see Li Teng as the host
wahaha
never in my life had i seen CWP being so crowded with ppl
i mean Metro that side lar
not the other side
So DAMN mny ppl

till i feel damn uneasy
wahaha
they some more blocked the way
first time also i see a real fanmeeting scene
was eating dinner at horizon mall
then when look down
OMO~
gt ppl carry the name board
somemore with the small light bulb in a very BRIGHT surrounding
erm
quite rich lar they~
lol
so i am starting to think seriously will it WORTH the time for me
if SJ or JJ Lin were to hold a fan meeting etc ...
probably i won't go
oni say say oni
unless ppl drag me along lar
but won't mind going concert (if i got$$)lol

need to go off soon liao
nd k my SPA for bio
n catCH UP WITH THE HORRENDOUS MATHS
must psycho myself liao
i love math i love maths....~ x.x

a new day!

2009-02-09T00:21:00.003+08:00

Morning!!!!
should be slping by now ...
:p
was watching video...so sure very kena scolding again....keke
anw
afternoon receive huiyi msg
got to say
actually i dun feel that u are a burden

just worry that when will u be independent
won't be forever by your side....
i always nag at u
cuz was thinking that u shouldn't kp on relying...
too much to say abt this
but just dunno how to express...
so just dun feel sorry.....

lalala
i think i must REALLY SCOLD MYSELF!!!!!
hey dumb Pau!
idiot PAU!!!!!
stop procastinate le!!!!!!!!!!
STOP all your rubbish!( excluding SJ:P)
u wanna DIE ARGH!
haiz....haiz...haiz....

my last post was on SJ
so wahaha
let me just con't on....
was watching the video on tudou...
the route that super junior took....
i think i won't mind watching it endless time
lol
is touching n really sadden ppl
the comment made by fans
were all from their bottom of heart....
SJ=13
SJ-M is just SJ -M
haha
thats what i'm thinking starting from now
March...!!!
3rd Album
must con't loving them n Support them
:P
all the E.L.Fs must be sharing same sentiment as me...keke
perhaps
10 yrs ltr
i will still rmb that there was once this super big grp that i'm damn obsessed with
n laughed at myself
OR
10yrs ltr
I'm still a fan of them...
supporting n watching over them....

wondering when will their M'sia Supershow held
hopefully is after my A
then can go with Dong n perphas meiqi they all
to genting( if i'm not wrong)
PRAY HARD!!!

hope their 3rd album will release soon
n top the Chart!!!!
still have to say
Take care of health오빠~
상라행요 ~

수퍼주니어~ HWAITING!!!!

long time...

2009-02-05T23:07:00.002+08:00

so long nv post liao
so just do it today while doing hw
haven been sleeping for more than 5 hrs per day
DAMN TIRED!!!!

recently been doing nth much
haha

actually wanted to post the last few days
but no time!!!!!!!
anw
i wanted to post thing abt SJ lar
so
zhi surely won't read this
haha

Recently heard from Dong that SJ is DISBANDING...
not exactly just abt to take
Heechul n Kibum out......!!!!!!
OMG!!!!
I damn sad lar...
cannot do this lor.....
heechul is one of my fav in SJ leh
without him
i won't noticed SJ lor!!!
think E.LF. are gonna be really mad abt this news
hopefully all are rumour

Forever 13!!!!!
Sapphire Blue haven covered the world yet...
so SJ cannnot be separated....
Eeteuk, Heechul, Kangin, Yehsung,Sungmin,ShinDong,Shiwon, Hangkyung
Kibum, Ryeowook,Kyuhyun.Donghae,Eunhyuk=perfect13!
all 13 oppa musn't be separated else SJ cannot be SJ....
!!!

SJ album gonna be out soon
ANTICIPATING!!!!!
i die die also will Buy ...hehe....
hopefully s'pore will release it very soon...
Must Support them and make sure their album top the chart!
SJ hwaiting!

anw...started to realise why E.L.F. are so angry
with the formation of SJM le
haiz
if SJM is not there
perphaps 13 will be still in Korea together...
perfectly n fine!

SM entertainment...
read alot abt them reacently
HOT news....
Shinhwa case...
DBSK news.....

wonder if all are real....
if they are...
the company is really evil n really frightening...

anw today is 5th of feb
Happy Belated b'dae to zhi!
happy belated b'dae to kyuhyun oppa too!

tiring!

2009-01-17T00:44:00.003+08:00

ytd was a tiring day
ended lesson at 4.30pm
run like siao
then still nd attend the rehearsal for CNY...
a bit fed up n DAMN TIRED cuz reached home at abt 10...

dunno why
suddenly gt mood swing
maybe... i dunno lar...
TIRED???
or maybe starting to feel stress liao??

this morn still nd go s'pore to have meeting
damn sianz
haiz
haiz
haiz~
wanna slp more
also can't
plus nd study for Biology n revise math for mon
perphaps shuld end here le ba

erm just to add on more things...
haha
went rd others blog again
too boring le no choice...

saw those precious junior words abt entering a new world soon
was kinda of disappointed when not all them choose PJC
but but
is their own choice
just hope all of them do WELL this yr n also for their nxt yr

maybe is becuz we've learnt it
separating is part of life
is always sad n frustrating when learning close frens
won't be around with us anymore
perphaps that is life
new experiences

Friends are hard to come by esp Good frens
treasure evryone now before anything happen or changes

After this yr
all of us will move on n get Separate again
wonder will i feel sad
.....
i got no more thoughts abt it
worrying abt future now...
wonder where is my dream
wonder how to cope by myself
wondering n wandering on n on~

last to note:
강인 oppa~ Happy B'dae!!!!!!!!

2009-01-12T22:44:00.002+08:00

也许时间能治疗伤痛
但我愿代你承担那伤口。。。

我只能默默陪在她身旁
分享着她的痛。
憔悴的她
不知能否将伤痛愈合。
我好希望能看再见她的笑。
也许
我能为她做些什么。
但，
我却一直无法搞懂
为何
我会有自己的意识、自己的感受。
是否是因为停留人世太久。
我讨厌这感觉。

2009-01-12T22:27:00.003+08:00

时间总是让人捉摸不定
好比人类的心情
有时希望一天能赶快离去
但，
回头一望
我们又不自觉地怪罪于时间

回忆让人难以忘怀
快乐的、伤心的、痛苦的
沉浸在回忆中会让自己迷失方向
倒不如
将那一串记忆埋葬
向前望
向着那一望无际的天空
寻求一个令人前往未来
创造更多的快乐时光

友情是一条牵线
是人与人之间相处的代号
人心难测
未来的友情是否还能存在
又有谁能预测？

天下无不散之宴席
人总会离自己远去
把握现有
让自己活得自在

new~

2009-01-12T21:54:00.003+08:00

firstly,
CONGRATS to ALL JUNIORS for getting such WONDERFUL RESULTS!!!!!!

wow...jia huan did really amazed me!
haha
i must say i'm damn proud of all though i alr knew all of u can do well de:)

today was first day is S04
.......WTH
why am i suddenly becoming the GP rep...
.......
can't do nything abt it
so
suan liao lor!
the class is actually okay lar
cuz si hui n Jane inside ma
tok to them most of the time

saw Claire n Weilin
have lunch with them
chat a while
erm...
i think hui yi forgetfulness is getting on me
i seems like i have contradicted the "disease"
lol

Oh ya
Jordan they all are coming to S04 tml
so
haha
will be alot of ppl
so quite okay lor

went down to XXX sch today
haha
went with zhi n a teacher
erm
saw their O level result lor
then a lot ppl cry
cuz their sch is not doing as great as Riverside
but i really think that nth is to be regret on lor
as long as u put in effort
the results will show
but if u really slack n slack till last min
no choice lar
thats it
time won't revert cuz of u being sad

if time is controllable
i wonder
maybe we will suffer less...
so just get on with life n ponder over nth

well
we also met this guy
haha
he is super cute lar
lol
cuz he so blur abt JC de info
so we explain alot to him
n even help him to choose his subject combi
haha
but anw
hope he really do consider b4 making his choice lar
poly n JC...
no difference in term of stress
oni the study method n the environment...

anw
my last word is that
PLS MAKE WISE DECISION
wahaha

08S06 a history~

2009-01-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

hate to admit but so what...
can't do much abt it though
just that
a bit can't bear it ba...
it was not that easy to be able to blend in a new environment
but...
gonna try again

08s04 ...
a class full of ppl i dunno
still lucky to say some PAE mates is in there
erm ....gt HUIYI with me...haiz...
not sad lar...just feel wu ke nai he...
cuz i shall be the ONLY MEMO PAD she having le....
****headache!!
lol

to Mei Qi n aLL
do Jia You for nxt yr
kinda diff cuz
competition is tough
haha
STUDY hard n dun play that much...
must meet up often in sch n OUTSIDE sch
not shopping obviously( i'll run away:P)
WILL MISS THE DAY we HAD in 2008!!!

2009-01-02T17:18:00.001+08:00

still dunno what to put for title
haha
juz leave it like that ba
Ohmo!
i hope is ok...
the storyline i mean
else zhi murder me!!
haha
.....
cont' soon.......

2009-01-02T16:51:00.005+08:00

我没有属于自己的名字
89757 是我的代号。。。。。

不知不觉中
一年已过
苏醒了整整一年
我终于习惯了与人类相处
体验着人类的生活。

在不久前，
主人的身旁出现了一个他。
他们俩
总是过得很开心、幸福。
我在一旁也为他们感到快乐。

主人待我很好
总是无无微不至的照顾我，
不让我操劳过度。
除了帮忙主人打理家务，
我也成了主人的最佳听众。

也许是认为我只是个没有意识的机械人
所以在我面前，她毫不犹豫地吐露所有心声。
无论是开心的、难过得。
做为一个好的听众，
我当然没让她察觉出其实我了解她的心情。

这几日，
主人越来越不开心了。
因为一场误会，
主人与他吵架了。
看到主人那憔悴的模样，
我的‘心’竟不知为何会隐隐作痛。。。

New Year..new resolution....

2009-01-02T16:25:00.002+08:00

2nd day of 2009

damn it...i'm damn so boring
brother went school today
stuck at home doing nth
haha
so on comp n on comp
that is all i can do
no life~
guess i need to find ppl out one of this day

Our dear Goh SIn Zhi went on her class chalet
will be back tml ba
Ytd night she called me
hehe
is i ask her call de
she was busying finding route back to chalet with her classmate
haha
is so lame
then b4 i hung up my phone
i heard a familiar voice saying"pauxian arghz?"
wondering who is it
never mind

I feel like murdering my comp
but cannot lar
its the only companion i have now
my only 'chingu' now
haha
i'm starting to use weird languages liao
anw
who cares~~~
lalala
loading something to watch!!!!!
damn slow....
getting impatient soon!!

school start in 10 more days
12th Jan ma...
busying to finish my hw
the chem was a damn FREAK me out thing
spending an hour on a quest
lol
not oni me lar
Zhi say she also
...
haha
so i guess my standard wasn't that worse
SO trying this few days to finish hw( left over de)
then also STUDY!!!!
revise n review on nxt yr topic
wOw...
i so Guai hor...this oni few days
No choice ma
must study liao
play too much will DIE de
As long as i SUFFER finish this yr
i guess can relax a bit

oh ya
wonder zhi got watch TV anot
JJ lin Concert in S'pore(28th of March 09)!!!!!!!!!
....shuld be correct date ba....hahax
wohoo!!
BUT
cannot go !##%$
is in MARCH!!!
too late liao
need prepare for A level by then

Beat Beat Birthday count down...
21 more days
haha
alr gt plan
so watcha lao beat!
this another yr of surprsie for u
turning 18 soon!!!!!
haha
(was discussing with zhi
then suddenly mention me n kai whose b'dae come first
erm..zhi memory retard ...no choice...
so she then say go watch M18 movie on Kai b'dae n smuggle me in!!!!)
haha

Resolution for NEW yr~
well
i dun really know leh..

maybe
* STUDY(priority)..
get hold of cHem n math!!!!!!+have gd memory for BIO!!!!!+DO Practises= Chao MUGGER!!!!

thinking of aiming for that Pharmacy or Life Science
then follow on will be Chinese studies liao...
SETTLED...
think no more
will die w/o a goal!!!!!!

*SAVE money( motive~ hehe)
*buy suju 3rd album....OUt in March i heard...anticipating><
*find a paret time job after A
*go somewhere out of S'pore n Ma'sia...haha...guess go myself or what lor
(wanting to go Korea...hope i can earn enuff for that else at least Taiwan or Beijing again!
)

P.S.Happy belated Birthday to SungMin oppa(SuJu) ~

2009 arriving!

2008-12-31T20:43:00.002+08:00

3++ more hours...
2009 will come...
so FAST ...
haiz
guess i'll just wish all Happy New Year beforehand ba...

normally ppl do some reflection of themselves
guess i'm odd one out
so ltr 1 hr before the clock strike 12
i will do it
haha

anw
this whole of 2008 is a new chapter at the beginning where everything were just NEW
new school...new class...new friends...new new new
but now no more le...
i'll just hope we can all do it in 2009
but before that
everybody must take the new yr a serious one...
no longer are we able to mischief around le
a crucial yr
so Jia You to all friends in JCs for our following difficulties

i am damn addicted to the show Iljimae...
hohoho
is damn nice
not the past korean show i've watched
it gt interesting storyline and cast
LeeJunJi...
watched 2 of his acts le
guess i could say he is quite a good actor...
haha

i just started my Bio hw
wanted to call HuiYi ask her
she damn GOOD
went out with Mei Qi n Claire
SHOPPING again!
haiz.....
give up liao
wonder do they realise a test is coming><

Now i'm watching another video on SuJu
(Zhi will be cursing me again)
is damn lame lor!!!
actually starting was scary...skipped alot of the scary parts...
i like listen ghost story but not see HORROR movie!
oh ya...when i went for the pharmacy camp
we stayed up till 5 +am to listen to crap n GHOST story
was damn interesting n funny
haha
guess i just stopped here

erm my storyline hor...
i guess i cont' after i finish my plot first
was thinking how to con't
so CYa in 2009!

Good BYe 2008 in a few more hrs.....

HapPy NEW Year!!!!!!!( in advance)

PS: can't wait for nxt yr arrival...heard SuJU M coming s'pore for promotion......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*****

3hrs+ b4 clock strike 12

2008-12-25T20:06:00.002+08:00

nth much to say...haha...
all done saying the X'mas wishes...
this Morn 12am kp on sending ppl msg
ltr some kena woke up by their hp tone

went TESCO near my hse today
filled with anticipation when i saw a bookstore
so while parents looking at some Chinese herb stuff
i went there myself
Then to my disappointment
nth much there
so i guess i won't visit that place anymore

then after shopping i went home lar
slp for 3 hrs
i noe i pig
not happy is it...
ANW
i start to study liao hor
doing some work on chem
i mean trying to fig out things i dun understand
then do some note taking

thats all lar...
ejoy the last 3 hrs + of X'mas!

song dedication_believe by SJ

2008-12-25T09:48:00.002+08:00

I super like this song not becuz is by Super Junior only.....
is becuz this song is really damn meaningful so
dun hate me hor....
haha...
ANW...
this song is meant for U ppl lar
hope u rd the translation to understand its meaning
believe
우리가 만나게 된 날을 축복하는 이 밤은
하늘엔 달이 펴있고 별들은 미소짓죠
그대의 미소가 지워지지 않길 바래요
언제나 행복한 날들이 계속 되길 빌며

혼자 지새는 밤은 나 그대가 자꾸 떠올라
그대에게 전화를 걸어 투정을 부린다 해도
사실 나의 마음은 그런게 아니란걸
알고있나요 다 알고도 모른체 하는 건가요

힘든 일이 있다해도 그대 목소릴
잠시라도 듣게 된다면 난 다 잊고 웃을 수 있죠

그대를 만날 수 있었던 건 행운이죠
곁에만 있어도 웃을 수 있게 만드니까요
그대가 저 멀리 있어도 찾을 수 있어요
내안에 그대가 미소를 짓고 있으니까

오랜 시간 흐르면 다툴 수도 있죠
그런 날들이 온대도 변하지 않을께요

약속해요 하늘아래 맹세 할께요
달빛아래 기도 할께요 그댈 울리지 않는다고

우리가 만나게 된 날을 축복하는 이 밤은
하늘엔 달이 펴있고 별들은 미소짓죠
그대의 미소가 지워지지 않길 바래요
언제나 행복한 날들이 계속되길 빌며
먼 훗날 언젠가 지치고 힘이 든다 해도
행복하고 아름다웠던 추억을 기억해요
서로의 화원에 믿음을 심고 행복을 피워
마음의 열쇠를 너에게 전해 줄 테니까

This night is blessing the day that we met.
The moon is out in the sky and the stars are smiling.
I wish that your smile won't be erased as I pray
for these happy days to always continue

On the nights I spend alone
I keep thinking about you
Even if I call you
and I complain
that's not what I really meant do.
Did you already know and just act like you didn't?

When there are hard times,
if I'd just listen to your voice for a moment,
I could forget everything and laugh it off.

I was so fortunate to able to meet you
because you'd make me smile by just being near
I could find you even if you go far away over there,
because you're smiling inside of me
It's possible to fight after a long time
but even if that happens I won't ever change.
I promise, I swear under the heavens.
I'll pray beneath the moon to never make you cry.

This night is blessing the day that we met.
The moon is out in the sky and the stars are smiling.
I wish that your smile won't be erased as I pray
for these happy days to always keep continue

Far into the future if you're ever worn and tired
think about the happy and beautiful memories
We plant faith in each other's garden and happiness blooms.
I'll send you the heart to my heart.

Merry X'mas!

2008-12-25T01:39:00.001+08:00

haha...when X'mas Arrive means New Yr count dwn le...
Everybody must Jia you for Our crucial yr...
Enjoy your dAy!

2008-12-24T21:18:00.003+08:00

在睁开双眼的那一瞬间，
看见你那灿烂般的笑。
当下，我便认定了你就是我主人。

2050年。。。
世界环绕在高科技里
人类也依赖着机器来运作。
效仿人类的机器人早已司空见惯，
所有的一切只需人类来传达命令
机器人便会执行。。。

第一次睁开眼
刺眼的光线
模糊了我的视线。
我只隐约感觉到气息，
听到一阵悦耳的欢呼声。

一位如天使般的女孩
站在我的面前
眨着他那双大眼好奇的
打量着我。
不知是出于感应，
我十分确定他就是我的主人了。

revive!

2008-12-19T16:30:00.002+08:00

revive from my laziness le
whatever lar!

this half a month was a busy month for me
haha

back from Beijing on the 3rd dec(last last...week)lost count le:p
really do enjoyed my trip over there
is fun n actually learn things(esp how to bargain price)

Most imptly...visted the Forbidden City
took some pic w/o myself in it haha
is on the photobucket album
go see yourself lar hor....

then after came back was Duty for the metro thingy
then kena cheated by zhi to do a flag day for YMCA
then is duty again....blah blah blah

just got back from a camp 2 days ago
was a truly experience for me
get to know a lot of ppl from diff sch
n also get to view the campus of NUS
also do some pratical from there...
haha

after that slack at home lor
just finished my vocab list hw
haha
still gt a lot!!!!!!!
anw tml is gathering at Beat hse
hehe
i did something stupid with the present
poor ******...dun get shocked by it!
but morn still gt duty!!!!!!
nvm...
i still quite fine with it..
cya guys soon!

15th nov 08- merry day

2008-11-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

hohoho...i staying at s'pore this few days
became a typical s'porean
went out the whole day then reach home late late...

first stay went out with tay , ching sian, rebecca....buy winter coat...
then it rain damn heavily lar
waited at a bus stop...
gotten wet
anw at least tay gt her coat....

second day which is ytd
went out with tay agan in the noon to TP
to see si min
TP actually gt a carnival sort of that day
DAMN CROWDED
instead of playing
me n tay went to their library
what a joke...
haha

Then after that tay went home
me n si min n Beat went Jurong point to have dinner with kok n zhi n le ting
I was totally a JOKE yto them
haiz
all bully me
!!!!@#$^
BUT AT LEAST make ppl laugh
hope u guys did enjoyed ytd

TODAY
went out again
I NEVER GOT LOST for th VERY FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!
so meaning i can be save
walk to tay hse from CWP
wait for beat piano lesson end
haiz...end up kena both of them attacked verbally cuz i today blur blur de
went beat hse to play
Cram in her small room
i must say...still not much change haha...
a lot of soft toys still
then use her comp
listen to quite a lot of songs till si min almost sleep
then FINALLY lao kai come
kai told us abt her diffucult encounter with some Jap students she hosting
so damn funny
can't communicate
so ate dinner at Beat hse n play
Play some board games call wad pictionary
teamed with min at first
thought will win...but end up losing
then 2nd round team with tay
thought will lose but end up winning
........
no logic right....
ok i shall end here now

9th november

2008-11-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

wondering must u always kp to yourself
if possible share with us
what is the use to kp it within u.......

long time since i post
A sense of relieved after knowing that i make it
it should be my luck
so shall prove my ability the following yr
Thanks god that all of u make it too!

waiting earnestly to 24th nov
my first flight iin my 17 yrs of life
one of my Dream destination
after on
shall kp still n work hard
Save money for the rest
Next aim are KOREA n JAPAN!

anw i'm kinda keen in learning Korean now
haha
kp on visiting libraries on self guide books
i think is quite a challange in Korean
the pronounciation is something quite unexpected
however is easy to write
bilingual is not enough so must upgrade ourself
oh ya...I WILL ALSO STUDY DE!!!
haha

actually gt quite alot to say but i think i've lost
the flow
well since then i better not force myself to write
so
BYE !!!

20th of oct

2008-10-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

time flies~
hope i can fly too...lol

anyway..getting result really soon
my Dear Brother gt 3rd in class n 27th in whole cohort
good results lor..
win liao lor...
Bleah~~oni sec2
haha

actually gt nth much to say abt ba
so maybe we tok abt last friday stuff

no pic cuz is beat take de...so no pic with the story arghz

Friday,17th oct 08

Pau finally celebrated her b'dae with beat tay kai zhi min kok n jia hao
haha...
pau went cwp at abt 3 on that day
went to take Blood test at civic centre with Tay accompanying.
pau went buy drinks with tay then meet beat n min in advance
then pau tay beat n min went window shopping...mostly looking at CD
Pau saw something in MJ...thinking whether to buy....lol
then abt then, kok n zhi arriving
kai also though she say she not coming at first

something funny is
Is PAU b'dae celebration...
how come pau have to wait for the rest leh...weird weird weird
but at least Pau feel happy cuz first time reunion everybody turn up

actually pau not feeling too good that day so gt a bit no anticipation
pau gt headache lar so dun always say pau emo or attitude
Went eat pasta mania without student price...
then tay zhi kai beat min kok n jia hao sing b'dae song infront of SO MANY PPL
pretty embarrased

GOt tiramisu cake in the end
BUT it TASTE 100% NICER compared to kai's b'dae cake
think kai gonna throw cake onto my face le

after cake eating
tay n zhi actually act out a stupid scence
Quite a fake scene lar
to giv Pau the present
haha
clever Pau noe at once what the present is when she took it
haha

then chat a while more

all went home

~end~

just b'dae 15/10/08

2008-10-15T22:00:00.003+08:00

nothing special this yr...haha...just grow 1 yr older only
this yr b'dae is not a very good one...
not a lucky one either...becuz i almost slip and fell....knock into this n that....
perphaps all the anticipation were already drove out of my body
cuz i feel no surprises lar...
i'm a very practical person as some of u know...
plus halo......i've celebrated n plan surprises for u all...
no choice cuz u all OLDER than me ....
my b'dae plan was to postpone to friday lar...
NO TIRAMISU CAKE from prima deli...
dear lao kai...dun u dare revenge...haha

alot of things actually happened today.
so u all not feeling too good ...
haha
but to u all....i must still say
THANK YU VERY MUCH for the 17 muffins
n the small baggy...erm...i must say 1 impt thing...
the price tag is still there...
haha

today cca was the most meeting serious among all other meeting
busy discussing a lot of thing abt open house
so stayed till 5 plus
reach home 8
kena scolded by father...haiz

next wed is crucial
my future lies on next wed
hope i really can promote
but i dun mian qiang lar if can't
seems like everyone alr have some backup plans le
so perphaps i should have 1 too!

anw
i no mood write liao
haha
wanna go watch video to cheer myself up
cya soon

TO: beat tay kai n zhi

the blog i make for us is ready to post
just that i a bit lazy to edit some of the blogskins template
if u all gt time go edit it lor
haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

13th oct

2008-10-13T00:15:00.002+08:00

haha...nth much to do so blogging in the early morn
regarding prvious post is because something not gd happen
and sort of affect my mood alot...went emo for a few hours...
yup a few hours only...

beside Arashi....some how or rather gt influenced by dear MeiQi n Dong Hui.....
thx guys cuz u 2 make me attracted by SuperJunior...
have been watching alot of their shows on Youtube recently...
is damn funny....
13 members in the grp...challenging for me to put their names tgt with their face...
so after a few weeks of watching their videos...
erm...is okay le lar...but still will mess up a bit..

counting down from today...haha 2 more days is my DAY!!!!!!
was wondering whether to tell them i dun really have th emood to celebrate...
feel that it is not a good idea....
Receive Tay 's card ytd...haha
is damn early to reeive it so i think she predicted wrongly the date
n without knowing what is inside , i alr opened up....sry Tay for it
but still wanna say a BIG THANKS to u...luv u :p

10 more days from now...haiz..get to noe my fate liao
Hope that all will promote...
dun wish to leave anyone behind...
neither do i wan to be lag behind...
still a bit confused abt myself....
i have to really start thinking liao...
What is THE THING I REALLY WANT???
my dreams?? i not sure le...i'm sort of lost my way after my dream of designing was opposed...
Pharmacy? Business? mass COmmunication??.......what do i want?
think i really have to make use of my fully packed holiday to think thru le...

to dear Beatrice n gang... holiday is coming... 0.0
planning of going out??
haha...
My schedule is as below...
17th nov to 21st nov( OBS)
24th Nov - 3rd dec( BeiJIng...provided i promote...so will update again)
12 dec( Paragon Metro CIP)
15th dec -17thdec( NUS pharmacy camp...)
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i think still got somemore...haha...so must plan carefully!!!!!!!!!!

nth much to say le lar...

just a last few words....

GOOD LUCK TO ALL TAKING PW!!!!
OP is coming so must Jia YOU!!

Good LUCK TO ALL graduating seniors...
Jia YOu for A levels...you all can do it !!!!!!!!!
STUDY HARD too!! haha..... :P

12/10/08

2008-10-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

suppose to be in s'pore now but feeling not too good in the morn......
just receive some shocking news causing me feeling hard to adsorb.

Hope that u are fine now...must Jia You !...life still need to goes on.
i got nth much to say about it cuz i really can't stand in your shoes to think
and react...so that is all i can say.... Jia You....!!! Sorry for unable to visit u and give u the encouragement in person...hope that this msg will be sent to u..
Remember... All of i are by yourside...

Life is always full of unexpectancy... treasure those with u now...
must learnt to appreciate them n love them...
turn grudges to happiness...that is how we should live...

内心深处的话第1章

2008-09-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

第一次发现一个人的外表下是如此的千变万化
第一次认真地体会到原来我忽略了许多
第一次我真的很想用心去体会及忏悔

其实有许多的千言万语是无法表达出来的
想说却无言以对是十分的悲哀
所受的委屈、嘲笑。。。
眼泪似乎只能望肚里流。。。
流干了泪再继续戴上那无形的面具来面对所有的一切

感情的世界我从未舍入过
但我仍还想说
信任是十分重要的
否则只会让自己身心疲惫
痛苦不堪

也许是该检讨自己了
不想落得狼狈不堪
而在别人面前伪装自己
去讨好他人
但
却失去了自己的原则

现在的我似乎一直在扮演着旁观者的角色
不想出介入任何是非
也许我的世界里只能有黑有白
灰色的地带必须被销毁。。。才能让我快乐

长大似乎真的很可怕
不知明的未来
不知明的黑白世界
不知明的感觉
正悄悄的、慢慢的到来
我早已经在里头迷路
正在针扎着找寻出路

总以为时间十分充足
谁知现在的我们在与时间赛跑
一不小心停下了脚步
便会发现自己落单了
是咎由自取吗？。。。

在未来
面临离别时
大家不知会否想起曾在一起的时光
一起笑、一起哭、一起玩闹。。。

到时的我们是否只对利益感兴趣
情谊则被抛至九宵云外
会不会有其中一人能将其他人唤醒？

12th Sept 08

2008-09-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

haha.it has been VERY VERY long since i blog. sort of dead ba plus i'm damn lazy. seems to be on the frequently since the last post but i doing serious work back then. This is my latest post b4 my Promotional exam end....
counting down to promo......6 more days to GP...

Kinda slacking now ......anyway recently i was quite into something.....last friday i think....went to watch Hana Yori Dango final...i feel that the whole movie is fine if u 're a great Hana fan or else some of the part in the movie can make u SLeep cuz is sort of too draggy.... at least i'm fine with it cuz the show is sort of suit my preference....i mean the lame part.
Due to that......i sort of went crazy over that show...so went back home n finish the Hana Yori Dango season 1 within 2 days...wahaha.....now i sort of controlling myself not to watch season2 ...must wait till after Promo...
Oh ya...thanks to that movie once more...i recently had become the fan of Arashi 岚...OMG!!!! I must say i rarely listen to any jap song or korean song... but then after listening to one of Arashi's song...i sort of went to search for more of them.....IS DAMN NICE....wahaha...even went to watch some of their videos on Youtube n is Damn FUNNY....this is sort of my recent entertainment lar...must control must control....exam coming......haiz...

something struck me ytd.....i finally have a Goal to set on le.....Wahaha FINALLY....
人因为梦想而伟大.....lol...so old lines le......however to me 人为了寻找梦想而发愁.....that is what i feel....
What is totally meant by dream...i dunno...or to say i haven come to conclusion yet...perphaps i've already lost one of it or perphaps i still working on it....who knows?? Anyway at leat i found something that interest me n might be the sources of my motivation now....hope i can last it long lar .... cuz i very easy change mindset de...but i guess or really hope i won't n i really hope I can be firm of it... i mean on my goal because is really tiring to work n work without any light in front of u.....as to what is it.....dun tell u first ...haha....wait till that day which i really get the chance to be close to it or even obtained it then shall i reveal...lol

everybody mood seems to be a bit down recently...perphaps due to exam stress ba....anyway everyone 加油!!!! After promo will be time for small celebration.....guess my holiday will be full pack cuz i am or might be going to Beijing.....first time in my life shall i travel on a plane......erm ...provided my promo result is ok...haha...n also a special reminder to my dear frens...hehe... 15th oct is not too far....u now what i mean dun u....lol

Long time no update!!!!!!

2008-07-27T14:02:00.000+08:00

i kp on saying ppl nv update blog but i sort of guilty of it also lar so try saying a few words here...

went to cut my hair just now...tml should be sxcaring a lot of ppl ba esp meiqi they all cuz nv see me in "short hair" before...nvm...maybe is becuz my hair only stayed with me for abt 2 yr so no feeling when the hairdresser cut it off...unlike ppl who grow long hair for a lot of yrs liao...feel a bit weird with this hairstyle but no comment cuz i think if it dun suit methen just bear with it for few months then cuz hair will grow de...

did i said how i did for mid yr???nvm but it totally sucks lar...failed my chem terribly...maybe is cuz i really nv study hard enough ba...so i must JIS you for PRomo liao...to my friends alos lar...JIA YOu!!!!!

lao zhi gt her liscense liao but is malaysia de so ppl when visit malaysia u guys should know what to do right...i only can get my chance at end of yr cuz my bithdate so long...btw also cannot drive in s'pore with malaysia liscense...sis say have to take in s'pore when turn 21...seems very tough ...

ytd parent meeting session...haha...everybody brought their mother or father...think only i brought my sis but is ok for me cuz gt used liao since secondary sch...maybe nxt yr change lor...anyway the comments abt me is ablout same as past lar...whatever...but still need study hard...!!!!

that is all ba....

quite busy recently...dun think will update very fast!!!!!!

Hell week......heart attack week??

2008-07-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

this week is really the end of our holiday...so is a new start again....not sure is because of the long break or the timetable now too pack....feeling damn tired everyday...gt panda eyes le lar!!!!! Well i still gt a lot of thingy to do......catch up with work...start revision for promo...PW written report ...pw presentation......GSC project.....CCA thingy...class CIp....OMG......feel that this term will really be too much......

Anyway i gt back my terrible n horrible result on the start of the week...just as i thought my result really sucks....even GSC also...serve me right for not studying...haha...must JIA YOU JIA YOU le....08S06 ppl also must continue to Jia you....dun get beaten by this idiotic mid yr result...!!!!!

anyway our class came another girl this week...a self retained J2...also my ex senior in riverside...so coincident...just somehow gt t o know that...she is a very nice gal lar...haha...getting well with the class now... :)

tml is a long day.....selling lollipop at CWP for CIP....1 lollipop for $2 ....erm...i wonder who will really buy....i can't even bear to buy it lor...plan to do stupid thingy tml le...sell the lollipop in abt 3 hrs...hope i can really achieved this target ..then go library do work ...almost forgt...have lunch in CWP...haha...

anyway hope tml will be a successful day !!!!!

STUPID written REPORT........!!!!!!!how to write????????

似乎忘了如何笑。。。。。

2008-06-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

越来越不开心了。。。不知为何感到很疲惫。。。好想逃离这个地方
考试刚果知道这次完了。算了吧。。。无所谓。。。下次真的要努力了
总觉得自己还真难搞...对事物总是那么执著。。。
想了许多，也许该放手了。
现在的我只希望自己能够尽力将事情办好不让自己再此留下遗憾。
过去，似乎真的好遥远。。。以往做过许多事情却都没有去尽力造成许多的后悔与不甘。。。
也许，再次让我回到过去，但，一切会改变吗？
正不希望再这样下去了。。。
累了。。。。。。。。。

Good Luck to all!!!!!!!!

2008-06-17T17:22:00.000+08:00

Today RSSW went Beijing liao.....think they on plane le ba......
Therefore i wanted to say.......GOOD LUCK to everyone......n also have fun !!!!!!!!!!

Haiz........quite envious they can go beijing cuz i dun get such chances or should i say miss out alot of chances?? nvm....

HOlidays over soon......= DOOM.....lol.....haven gotten all my BIo into my heads n the chem.....haiz.....
Still left with 5 more days to K books.......
Jia You Jia You Jia YOU!!!!

No tiltle

2008-06-10T14:59:00.000+08:00

haha........me is slacking now...so is equal to exam sure die lar.........
Seems like my comp is ok now cuz finally can watch video faster than b4
Dun think i feel ok though my comp is ok.....shuld be serving myself right cuz always stay up
very late to watch TV.......:p......now having flu n having hand ache...hand now no energy
Trying to do chem just now n oni finish half of 1 chpt.....but at least still gt do
Biology ma.....sure gt study la....memorise here a bit n there a bit oni lor...
maths ma.....think hoe my graphing chpt can kill me so thats the end of it lor as
mid yr de component gt >1/2 is graphing thingy....:(

well ytd went out with beat tay min zhi my bro n jia hao
our dear kai kai was sick......wondering how's she...think haven die lar cuz she can't bear to leave her beloved Tay ma.........lol
Ice skating seems easy ok but wth ......it actually is difficult.....i fell 3 times ytd as beginner...
went to play pool also...hehe...brought an underage kid with us n still can go in.....haiz
I also sucks in pool lar...cuz i dunno fault how many ball.....not my intention lar...
last time i think pool is very boring now to tell u all after the game
I STILL THINK POOL IS BORING.....
hope u all won't kill me lar.....though i didn't change my perception,
at least i won't mind playing again......which i truly hope u all won't:P
i bought something ytd....for jia huan....think is quite meaningful
thurs hope can really go back band ba...to see them b4 they fly to Beijing......

want to read detail abt ytd go to GP-alliance ba...zhi update liao n i lazy add on more :p
oh ya...zhi say my blog diff to read.....yup i think so too...
cuz nv phrase my word properly n also jump topic alot of time
meant to confuse u de lao zhi.......haha.....

Damn no feeling

2008-06-07T15:00:00.000+08:00

Can't i just as for little more.......well NVM...thats all i can just say ba...not really no who the hell really can understand me.......doubt no one since my own parents can't...
ytd everything went on smoothly....in the morn...afternoon came 1 problem...minor problem i think...n then there goes half day laughter .......
may i Know...is it only me the one using comp?? then why is it everything my FAULT!
BLame lor..that is all u all can do...that PERSOn is innocent de ma........
Trying to defend for myself also got wrong.....did u all try to ask me properly what HAPPEN
why is it that the first word i heard is already .....ASK URSELF lar......haha...guess wad
i doubt there is a day when u all van actually learn to know me......
I admit that shouting back at u all is wrong.....did anyone know how i felt after all those mistake i make n i know that is wrong......GUilTy....so what????seems like no one knows or even care....
all i will get is always same old thing......SCOLDIng n beating.........
hello.....i'm 17 le leh....no longer 7.......
Now i even come to a realisation.......nth in the world ....nth is FAIR.......if u ever ask for fairness.......be prepared to be a mockery.....nv nvever do such things again.....
is it that being a gal gt problem.......must it only be the guy that can stand out n everything that wan or they do is correct??
What a WORLD.......
天秤的两端永远也不可能会有平衡的一天。。。。

An end to everything????

2008-06-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

time really pass by very fast....
already half of the yr gone...n so much tragic had happened
The sichuan earthquake was really something that i doubt i will forget
So many die n injured ....n also many of those are of same age or even younger than me...
Felt very overwhelmed by this disater...a bit too much to take n to reflect upon...
Human are really very weak when against natural disater even though technology is advance to a certain extent....when disater strike....we are still unable to overcome it...
A proverb in chinese states that human are able to overcome fate.....is it really so??
I remembered that i'd discusses about the quest on fate with my frens before n we were arguing whether everything is being dstined by god which most doesn't think so
However, come to that...don't we find that being able to know ppl around you is something that is being finalised...yup...we may kp on saying "IF I never ....." but thing seems that it is already predestined n we are not able to take back ou time to replay everything...
Thus...nv let urself to have the chance of saying regrets .....strive for everything that is
within ur reach....esp when coming to the part of maintaining something....

Memories......who doesn't have them??
They are part of u.....but is the past...unable to replay them again or to change them again......
Graduated from my sec sch foe abt 9-10month....i think that is my most perfect or most memorable part of my life till now ....esp in my CCA...
is hard to make fren esp ppl who shared same visions n goals as u
I treasured my frens...my juniors then but till now...i dun feel sastified..i think i could have done better if more chances are given....
But i couldn't do it again....is too late...
Thanks to the ppl then who had have given me their support...lending me ur ears
or even forgave me of my very bad temper or else i may have alr gave up then....
Friendship is about support , trust ......maintaining is difficult...
Wrote such thing is becuz recently i saw n heard my closest frens are splitting up.....
n no matter u all will see this a not.......yup the 7 of u...i must say ....treasure each other with the amt of time u guys are left with.....cuz u will never know after each individuals have their own dreams to reach.......when will u have the time to settle down tgt again...
with only few ppl trying to bring back the friendship is not enough...n is very tiring.....
maybe u all might say i'm being busybody or wad...but really.......it is something that matter
alot to me cuz i hate most is seeing frienship being broken up......

think i speaks.....i mean wrote so much abt such things today n thats it......finally can relax a bit cuz these wrds kp on pondering me these past few days...no time to write then ...so....k lar...hope u ppl noe i mean well k......

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Moving on....on 29th may....a terrible n frighntening experience........lol.....i dealt with a lot of Kids n damn lot of them......woah.........guys.......nv try to mess up with kids nowadys.......they are really "deVil".....too part in the Pionee Explorer thingy n help up in the balloon sculpturing......i scared of balloon de leh......but think that is the easiest le ba....team up with zhi n tay...learn somethimg from Mr Kum in only an hour......must admit.......my hands are definitely stupid...lol....cuz a bit clumsy n afterthat also learnt more Higher level de skills from Zhi...flower n the teddy bear face....which i dunno burst how many balloons b4 i mastered them...felt a sense of sastification to learn something ifeel quite interesting....lol......
kkk.......back to the scary part......b4 those kids came to our stall ,we made alot alot of shapes n were playing alot of fools with JX,TW,KH,DH......lol......but after they are realeased from their "tea break"......i must say.......we all gone craz.....Damn Busy lor.....cuz they snatched all the sculptures did b4 hand n w/o anymore spare, we have to entertain alot of those w/o the balloons......felt like i was a "factory" then......kp on making BASIC swords*easiest item* for the boys......guess wad they deal with the *swords???
Star Wars fight lar .......obvious right.......some gals evn join in.....damn cannot take it......lol......
after the event we then have time to rest n using remaining swords ......lol........we became the kids liao.........poor JX.....kena us attack.......having lot of fun n also i sort of resolve awkardness with SOmeone.....lol.....feel happy lar....
however, something quite suay also happen.....halo...CS there flood sia when i go home......but lucky traffic still can function so i manage to get home....saw some "cool scence" cars being partial submerged in water......poor owners.....
anyway thats it lar.........cannot write too much lol......very long liao

Nite ppl.....or morn??i dunno.......
Jia You for eXAM!!!!!!

Short post of today

2008-05-25T22:01:00.000+08:00

Watch the TV abt the charity of SI CHUAN province juz now....n i totally forgt that i want to do reflection on that for long time.........now no time so perphaps tml or the comp may really explode......"scary"......first time on for so long.........:P

Ok today is juz sleep eat sleep eat watch tv day.........cuz tml HOliaday.......ya as if........still gt sch sia........till 4 pm.....saddened...

Juz chatted with "him' juz now...think he won't noticed my blog exisits so NVm.......haha...
first time i realised we can have so many common topic.....
ask me who is the "him" arghz.......haha guess LOR!!!!
yup long time nv see him also.....even during CNY this yr ....only pass him his
present thru his mom....
but lucky he liked them......gd tatse of beat n min ma...i oni share the cost....lol
should be very "ming xian" to some le ba...who is the "him"......hehe

k lar......juz doing a lot of rubbish today but i gt do research on PW so tml won't be killed at least by thay all...:p
quite a lot of info which i dunno can use a not n i juz dump into my thumdrive..
lol

GTG liao....if fine tml will post meaningful thing to all.....BYE n NIte....

wish everyone will be happy n treasure those besides u NOW!!!! esp to dear Ah Gong Si ying n dear Xingyi....saw u 2 de post le n i must say must jIA You ba.......friendship is really hard to come by......no matter what if u can....treasure them as much as possible or else in the end may regret. EVen if they dun care juz nvm cuz at least u all try........kk.....JIA YOU!!!!!

I forgt 1 last IMPT thingy.......tml is LAO Ba......Jia Huan b'dae.......shit...totalyy gt no impression till now.....tml go buy present le lar....

To all beloved juniors taking O's......Jia YOU lor!!!!!!

Back to my OWN WORLD!!!!!!!

2008-05-24T15:55:00.000+08:00

lalala.......how long have i not been posting??........lol.........i actually lost count myself
NVM.....oh dear ppl.......i'm back to my own blog le cuz i 'd quit from the gp-blog.
though not there le.......but still can come over here to look for my own updates
Not sure when will i set up the pau-factory.....lol.....if that is set up...think this poor blog will be closed down soon.....haha..if that is the case, i had actually closed down 5 blogs in total...
all due to my laziness

Just finished GP ytd n i feel that i'm writing rubbish.....n i really hope i can juz pass.......
Exam is just starting out so must study during this break lar
quite busy also due to lessons n will be doing grp studying with frens they all
n also cannot forget to play......hehe...i mean relax.....

i think i got myself involved with too many things le:p......dunno why........but actually i am still living n sort of able to cope cuz i dun feel stress
however, recently went thru quite alot n dunno why got a very very weird feeling
ask me what is that....i also cannot tell u cuz i dun even noe myself.
It is not the stress or frustrated or tiredness feel but juz out of sudden i feel like not wanting to care
abt anyone
When ppl were joking n laughing .......i couldn't share their lamenes...or wadever.....
i feel like i'm sort of like a 3rd person watching them from other side...
though with alot of frens surrounding me, i still feel very empty inside...
recently also if no one want to pay attention on me, i will kick up a fuss
feeling damn angry n frustrating
is quite terrible actually....n am i really that uncontented.........

Ytd i think i quite bad also...seing a few ppl sitting 950 but wanting to alight at woodlands point de stop...yup i told them the bus is going directly to checkpoint instead of bus stop
but i didn't warn them about the need to seek help from officers inorder to get out from checkpoint......
making things worst...i evn kp a look out of them to see them being embarrassed......n i still can feel like...wow....a new show...finally something that bighten me up ytd
i feel i'm quite childish after that.....n very bad also.....but nvm......

hope that such feel can bypass soon.......perhaps i need time....or maybe is because
i walked in to wrong environment
or
perphaps is juz i can't get to understand myself n can't get them to understand me

i wrote a mail wanting to send to this gal ...to tell her that i want to give her a chance to prove
my n the class impression on her is wrong
but i dunno should i sent it out.......
none of my closest fren do actually noe that i was being left alone in my former class before...
haha....maybe is becuz i'm too irritating or selfish or juz i'm tooo unsocialised
back then no one did actually tell me what is wrong....no one even bother to help me......
i can still rmb those ppl faces after knowing that i might be in same class with them again.....
all were like...."OMG....not again"
but i manage to escape ...manage to get out of that lonely world n started out to be cautious.....
to be too imaginative......always have the feel that ppl were talking behind my back...or were they only making use of me ... haha.....is a bit too over but
i trusted no one even if they are closed n willing to share their secret with me....
not that i want to be selfish but it just seem.......i dun wish to get hurt no more...

hence,i was thinking should i help her since i could understand how she feel...or juz keep
like nth happens........

wonder how to survive.......

2008-03-29T18:06:00.000+08:00

finally...i realise that my class is not that bad though is not really crappy but is still well.......fine.....better than 4/4....i mean lively than 4/4......haha.....my CT is really not as cool as i think lar cuz he rarely laugh....but i must say.....hope the class agree with me.......he is a bit longwinded......haha.....n his lesson a bit boring.....:X.....having class outing soon.......wondering why is on sun...but nvm .....hope i can go n also won't rain......one more thing........hope that week gt no alot hw or else......die.......haha......

a bit "qi dai" nxt sat de "dao lai" or sun i not sure......hope is already planned or it will be damn disappointment. still thinking of wad to make or buy....thinking of that......i also think i will die soon cuz have no idea wad to do for PI.......OMG.....the deadline is reaching.....counting down is like left with 12days pus more.....haiz.....i'm also flooded with wrk lar......a lot of thing i gotta catch up also.....

a bit sry to ms leong cuz always fell asleep in her class which i damn hated myself but i can't really control.......sob.....but i must say she is really very understanding.....
oh ya.......i recently got my new hp....incase i nv update ......haha.....lucky to have it or else is really troublesome.....but i must control my usage which i am very confident that i won't over used........haha......cuz i rarely use it to make call n i dun always msg ppl innecessarily unless u are my "si dang"...lol.......

ok stop till here lar.....still need do work.....will update soon

Day with TV

2008-03-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

holiday holiday........lol......my holiday=day with tv.....lol.....sure sure my tv is really my best n oni companion esp when my dear da jie is at home..haha...cuz she will definitely bring me out to buy alot of movies......drama....to watch de......hehe......juz finish 3 episode of er zuo ju 2 wen again.....which is 12 ep le..happy....love that show alot cuz is lame n nice.....haha......today is nth special.......erm quite a while nv update the gp blog..erm i mean i never post......cuz lazy lar......hehe......actually no also lar ........is becuz i cannot on the computer as and when i like......will kena scolding de.....

i am so damn wad lor....thinking of whether i should sign plan anot or juz buy a new hp which cost a bomb.....my money.......will be gone of cuz.......anyway...juz dun care for a while lar.......wait till time comes then say.....ltr if gt time then go gp blog to post ba or will kena scolding.....

tml actually wan go back riverside to visit family members but sad no one accompany me so maybe nxt time ......perhaps on fri......sorry lar "Mommy.....lao pa....ah gong..... ah ma........" holiday holiday when are u gonna finish.......i'm so damn sianz at home......oh ya i almost forgot ......hehe.....i need revise wrk......yaya.....will start tml de.....

juz feeling a bit Restless

2008-03-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

ok.....08S05 officially announced breakup......damn shuld have choose China study then........but nvm at least gt Ms Leong as my Bio teacher ........but i miss Miss Ng ML de lesson lar......haiz....thanksfully my chem tutor gt changed le...will miss everyone in S05 de n also i mus t jia you le.......need make new frens n fufill my desired.......secret*

March holiday liao......will be a damn sianz de cuz no activities lying in front of me.........miss my secondary sch life though is tiring but is so full......u noe wad i mean.......haiz ......my life seems so empty without band n sch wrk.Damn boring ......frens all dunno go where liao.......so suan le.....me alone oni ma.....not as if i've nv been that way....okay....a bit disappointing...seems like i was left alone in my own world.....wadever....hack care.......erm........juz dunno wad to say......shouldn't have plan n think n also HOPE for too much cuz is always that way n i 'll always nv learnt frm my lesson....u will drop more if u desired more.......haha......that is how i feel.....shouldn't have really put them at such important place ... i know that eveyone is gonna lead new lives......but but........may i noe......u guys really so STM or wad......hack lar...damn piss off by all of u all de attitude........nvm i go emo myself......if really one day u guys find me not bothering u all......well i must say that marks the end of our friendship......cuz i think by then i 'm really not gotta care abt the world except myself anymore......u can say is selfish but who cares anyway.........

didn't mean to attack who but juz feel like voicing out my fruastration...if anyone not happy with me......come find me lor...........

oh ya..kai juz told me cannot use cum cuz it gt a meaning.....

Damn terrible WEEK!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

i think i may need to stay home this whole wk so as to not let more things to happen to me le......DAMN it lar........why why why........????? still can't understand......why my Nokia phone is still there when my Sony phone is lost.........??? u noe u noe.....my sony phone oni 2 yr old plus....haven even reach 3 n then it just ....."boom" disappear ...damn that stupid person who gt hold of it n not RETURNING to me.....i curse u lose all ur belongings esp money for this wk so u oni can eat GRASS!!!!!!!i noe i bad but i think is not that bad ......i'm so contradicting.......why in the world ,there are so mny of this kind of *******.why can't u ppl be like the uncle the other time......he is so gd lor....return me my HP n not keep it......i must swear...i wil learnt frm him n not all the other *******........!!!!!!!!!!

moral of the story....

dun be so careless like me.....notice ur surrounding......
pls be considerate n return ex stuff to the owner or they will be like me....cursing those who are selfish

starting of the wk.....
i slipped n fell off the stupid plank...dunno why i fell lor when ppl alr warn me becareful.........must be becuz of Zhi lar...lol.......see her fell than i auto fell also...damn pai seh lor......but lucky i fell in front of the 3 of them oni cuz all others are rushing to sch..almost late ......thx to eh hm.......n now i lost my handphone!!!!!!!! why are all this happening to me leh!!!!! perhaps i shouldn't have done those things at first ba......haiz........so regret.......maybe is the god punishing me lor....but must say i suffer enough le lar.......so plz stop .....hope tml is a peaceful day.....

Halo........can i ask when will that sTUPID person be caught.....i dun wan Jam le lar......is damn enuough......always make me go home late late ....tiring de leh........ppl who spot him if u nv call police i will really ********** u..........i dunno wad wrds to use....haha.....but really it means nth......

ok......my mission now is to look out for new phone le or else will suffer ........sob...sob.......

23feb 08-O2 had just ended

2008-02-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

can u guys believe this as a school hall?? haha....doesn't it looks more like a concert hall?

Happy Birthday Sherley aka lao tay,xiao tay,tay*2.........wads ur feel abt turning17??

sorry that i wasn't able to celebrate ur b'dae with u cuz i was so damn tired that i woke up at 10.30 today.....

i was not able to update the blog this past few days cuz i was damn bz lar with O2....must be surprise to some of u that i'm an OGL ....haha....thru' this O2...i really must say...i learnt alot n gain alot of experiences...met new frens in my OG....Lynn,Trisha......though sometimes really felt frustrated abt this OG but eventually i really miss them cuz have been with them for 3 days n can't really bear to part.....

Orientation day 1

the super sian day is always the first day of cuz...gt to see quite a no of Riversidians in PJ though...haha...oh ya i was so lucky that Nandhini was in my OG so i'm not so lonely at all....:)

after the wadever tok in the morn...haha was the start of O2...erm all OGLs got to dance on STAGE...ON STAGE n i mean it...lol...Gamma chose the Uptown gals songs to dance with n the dance steps were easy n DRAMATIC ...haha...but is quite nice as everyone of us was giving our best...though some other ppl may find our dance "quite" boring but i must say..."hey ppl....try dance on the stage urself lar...also try coming up with ur own dance steps in such short days n very few practices"...:X....after all the dance come the OG time.....everyone was sort of shy shy n dun dare to tok ....i must say i am too but t no choice i gt to speak cuz i 'm an OGL....if i'm not hor...sure u can see me emoing at a corner...lol....tried to rmb everyone name....ya i could but sad to say...not the face ...thus is like = i cannot pair up the person name with his / her faces lar...

thouh is quite sian but i think actually my OG ppl are still sort of okay....during cheeers n songs session...i must say ...all except for OGLS,SC,SCAPERS....must think that it is a very sian thingy...haha...as they were like staring at us in amazement when we are singing n cheering like siao.....i think is quite normal cuz i was like tt during O1....:p....well the day ended quite on time this time round ...haha...all went home at 6plus but not us cuz we still gt debrief....n eventually it end at 7 plus n i was home at abt 9 almost 10......damn the hell tired n a bit not feeling well .........

Orientation day2

some how i really prefer this day.....haha....i was a bit like very sick in the morn n a bit feel like dun cum sch le...but in the end haiz...i still force myself up....me n zhi were late for the morning briefing....thoght we are gonna be the latest liao but abt 10 mins after we reached........we saw RY,Yoges,Thrinna,JX.........they all are worst then us sia...so damn late....lol

As usual...the day start with rubbish tok....which is just a recap during PAE....i was a bit falling asleep liao....haha..but try kp myself up by doing some admin stuff......

After a break were the station games....i must say i was a bit pek chek when the OG ppl were like hack care during the start but luckily n thxfully to the2nd game which is my fav ...that kps them up n become more enthu n participative...i joined in a game which was the tanker n driver thingy n paired up with YY....me again was blind folded lar...picking up water bombs...Andy also joined in the games with us....i didn't really gt wet lor though zhi say she try hit me with the water bombs...cuz it didn't break...wahaha....when i took out the blind fold i was like...wow...the rest of the OG members were wet ....after the games...was lunch n clan time...think all the GAmma OGLS were having a hard time cuz the members are a bit of low ........so no choice the OGLs have to "zi" high lor....including me...haha i a bit pity Cris...cuz Zhongri gt hold of her secrets........which was like a damn BIG SHOCK to her....i think the whole Gamma OGLs except for Andy,Jay,ERnest ,etc, the rest noe abt it too after the end of O2 thx to Zhongri of cuz....haha

i went to the office with 2 gals in my OG grp n saw Wei Hao there ...a bit surprise n heard frm him that his appeal to AJ was a success....saw quite a lot of ppl(Ting ,JJ.....) trying to sign out of sch n appeal to others....hope thay won't regret abt their choices n as many whom were posted to other sch are trying to cum back as the other JCs to them are sianz .....n that includes my classmate.....OG29 ppl in 01.......while waiting for the gals i was sort of crapping with zhongri in side the office too....oh ya this is when i realised that he noe abt Cris secrets...

After clan time was the dance.........it is damn nice lar...i love the cute dance sia...it was really fun....think those who are learning also enjoy themselves....haha it was indeed funny to see the ppl to be shocked by the couple part.......lol

during war game....erm i must say i didn't join in cuz i changed back to U liao...so was like entertaining ourselves....i mean me faith ,cris zhongri..esh......haha....while their"war" started we were scavenging for plastic bags to fill up n form our own "clan" which is to bombed whoever we like...it was so damn fun lar....heard that our clan paln was to stick wiyh SIGMA Theta to go against the B.A.D. gang but ended up Sigma joining the other side which anger some of the Theta n Gamma OGLs...

the day ended even later n i reached home at10 plus...tired sia...after my dinner n shower i went straight to bed.

Orienation Day3

the most enjoyable day though it wasn't in the early part....during the service learning talk....i was a bit touched what the seniors did....their CIP was really damn meaningful n i vowed that i will be joing in if there are going to set up whatever CIP to whole sch....

see me with money ....haha i'm a loan shark b4 the campfire i guess...oh ya beside me is Cris....say hi to her nxt time if u see her cuz she is my fren n thus ur fren too....

let us skip my most disappointed part ba..dun feel like mentioning ot anyway....just jump striaght to camp fire....dunno why everyone was so damn high in Gamma which made us the OGLs felt relived...esp Andy...haha....think those parentsmust be shocjked when seeing the whole sch including their child dancing in the parade sq like siao n cheering like mad....

the day was like so hot in the noon n the early evening haha....but think the weather is like against us cuz after Beta performances it is abt to rain n eventually it rain lar...poor delta cuz they are performing while rain cum n no one was concentrating on them...everyone grab their belonging n chiong to the hall n at first we thight it will ruin the performances but i think it didin't n perhaps ths to the weather that we are REALLY ENJOYING....Delta got to perform again n now everyone was concentrating of cuz ...haha....up nxt is Dear GAMMA....n also becuz Gamma is seated at the front thus we wer really going Crazy during ou clan performances....think that they have really CHOSEN A GREAT song to suit the theme...JUNGLE FEVER....n also to brighten up the mood....cuz we weer like turning the hall into a Disco as all other clan members join in with us during a part of the "Tarzan n Jane' song....everyone was screaming n shouting...haha.....n most impt thing the Gamma performance is requested as one of the encore after sum prize presentation....feel so warm hearted when i saw everyone uniting tgt even when we dunno one another during sch cheers ...the songs....erm i was like up onto the stage for dunnno how mny times if any of u notice....haha is damn great n nice....felt that it is really meaningful cuz O2 was like whenever compared to O1 will lose out but this time round is equally gd........saw that some ppl started crying as they can't bear the event to end .......
Our dear emcees...aren't they cute....must thz them alot cuz if it is not for them, dun think the show can go on.........

see how united the ppl are.....OMG...love PJ O2 ........

after the whole event...was shocked n surprise cuz weelin.xiaohan ....bought drink for us to celebrate...oni for Gamma ok.......haha ...dun envious...thx guys...love u all though we are not very close.......the debrief ended @ 10 30 cuz the OGls n SC n SCAPERs gt too much to share ..n after every of their speech...i felt a great impact on me...n i was really thxful n happy to be able to join in with them to lead n serve cuz it is quite a different thing when i am serving in band...now i really felt a great sense of belonging to PJ in such short time as compared to RS....the unity n the passion holds in eveyone heart was like 100 time or perhaps more than wad i felt in RS......began to feel more like a pioneers

*pic sponsored by Cristella

back again

2008-02-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

my collection of presents.....lol...quite long liao lor...the bear in the backgrd is like 10 yr plus lor...most recent is the snoopy de set....got frm lao tay...hink is a bit small to be seen...:p

lao beat...is tis familiar...yea...is willy...i named de lar...lol...accompany me to slp every nite
...my best fren sia....tay can it join the zoo??though it is a bit weird ....whale n caterpillar de combi
eh...think the pic is hahaha....yup....not upriht...nvm anyway...this is nice deco right...but sad is not mine....haha...is my bro de........
sum rubbish i drew...hope u guys won't puke...:P

P.S.:think i suddenly siao...actually wanna go slp or others de...anyway..fell like posting some photos so just view it then...tml no sch ma...can slp later

18th feb--last day for PAE.....

2008-02-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

official announcement...today is the last day for PAE.....woah...time really does fly...1 month plus plus gone liao...

Actually wanna pon sch n buy Uniform with the others de lor but sadlar cuz can't throw tay they all in PJ just like tt n also have promise Christ to but with her....which is actually tml in sch......haha....cuz vendor coming dwn...:x...
today is a short day cuz i pon lesson ....2 at a go....felt sorry to my Chinese teacher leh...last lesson but i pang seh them........must admit sumthing lor...though H2 MT is difficult but the teachers are nice n interesting...will miss them de...Wow...a miracle today Mrs **** nv cum sch...everyone was like so surprise n DAMN HAPPY of cuz....too bad lar yoges n RY...though u 2 nv turn up...we are enjoying :P.....haiz...actually now then i find my class NICE lor...all ppl though is like not very close but they are very good ppl...will miss ppl like shi man(nv gt to see her today...unsure she staying anot),caroline,si hui(unsure if staying too...but even so might not be same class)....yi xin.....plus plus...hope u guys can success in future endeavour(wonder i spelt correct anot).......hope that if i continue bio...the tutor will still be Miss Ng...she is "cao" nice de n her lesson is damn fun n clear....

today having clan rehearsal again...its fun sia....haha...cuz they practise half way can always get out of topic...esp the cute dance...i LOVE That... is fun n CUTE...lol...think i somehow like my clan alot cuz the ppl are interesting...oops i forgot to introduce my Gamma de clan master ...Andy...lol.........is not the 4/4 de Andy but they are both equally lame n fun...:)...tml we are sacrificing our dear slp hrs to go sch n practise again...haha...wondering if they agt add a lot of things anot after me n christ left....the rest of the clan ppl are friendly n lovely esp the guys are very HIGH de ppl...tml will be a busy dat cuz after rehearsal will be out to buy n search things together....WED is coming....haha..."cao qi dai de shuo"...hope a lot of RS de ppl will be in PJ n in my grp...ya...my OG grp is18...think i have affinity with 18 lar cuz my index no is always 18 except this yr....lol......

oh ya...saw siying again today...haiz miss my "mummy","lao ba"...my dear other family members alot...i hope i will be free nxt wk...think will bw cuz is mass lecture...hehe....so we can meet up some day....will miss jie xin also...lomng time nv chat with her le sia...miss her lameness but seems like she's not in the mood or wad...so won't bother her recently till she's fine....miss alot alot of ppl...frens esp...n Mr Neo n Mr Er...haiz...not joining band liao....but still miss them so much.... this is like my "gan yan" :P....any way just miss u guys lor...is like i won't be that free later on liao when JAE stuff atually start....i must conc on my studies le....cuz i wanted to do well...i mean very well...think u guys will give me ur support won't u ........cuz u guys are special to me...;) i really do mean wad i written here..haha

i think this pic suit wa i trying to say...lol...all memories are pasted in my mind.....

this is all i gotta say ba...haha....think thats all for the day...nite n sweetdreamz everyone

17th dec-just back home frm camp

2008-02-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

well it has been some time since i update my blog cuz i'm busy.....moreover just gt bck frm OGL camp this afternoon.the weekends was a fufilling one i must say cuz the camp was high n fun....got to learn a new dance...wahaha..is fun...well must say due to the camp i got to noe a lot of new ppl esp Christella...she is a nice person .....thin that i still gt rm for improvement in socialising cuz i'm still slow.....in some sense.......oh i forgt to mention i'm in Gamma now,,,think will be taking OG 18 with a guy call Yong(3) Yuan (2)...haha must state or else will be come "forever" liao.......think he is a nice chap quite "zi" high that kind......i'm so damn tired ytd after the camp that i almost knocked off at grand stand when the clan are discussing on the dance steps......is damn tiring.......but lucky manage to pass thru'.....anyway i also very tired today ...haven gt time to slp .....will slp soon ........haha......
after the camp me n zhi went over to tay hse only to get the file or wadver we left at her hse prviously....but ended up toking to her ....disturbing her slp by telling her the camp thingy n wad she must do or why must go the Orientation 2........must see her face sia...is a damn sian de look.....then suddenly her mom pop in with 2 hongbao packets........didn't expect sia.......thx auntie...
tml actually dun feellike going sch lor......haiz but still gt to go in the noon so i just go lor....but think i will 'pon' PW n chinese ba....cuz of clan meeting.....hope everything will turn up fine tml...and guess it will be a long day so no matter wad i nt going on tues if there is lesson...i sure slp till i like n go out with Chris to buy Uniform ba.........oh...tml tay n wan er cuming to crash......bu loo n yoges they all may not be going so will be a bit sianx ba....lol....nvmstill gt si hui they all .......i hope so ...haiz.i'm damn tired so i beta go slp now le.nite everyone.bye!

10th feb08- CNY 4th day or wadever ......

2008-02-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

CNY ma...so much put such lame pic to fit the mood........lol

okok......today is a damn bad day for me......why?? cuz no one wanna ACCOMPANY ME WATCH MOVIE.....wth.......dun like them lar....then today i dunno like slp for how mny hours.......eat n slp eat n slp.....haiz......now is like so awake...tml sure***......CNY is so damn the hell sianz esp tis yr......nth to play nor gt place to visit.......except ytd de damn boring n awkward wedding....lol.....cuz oni me n my bro attend with my aunt n cousins...well but is ok lar cuz gt ah wen there.......but the rest of cousins erm...faint.........young kids leh......how to communicate...think i gt age gap problem le lar...lol:P....think is cuz i dun get to see them so often ba...nt like the others staying so close....but think is lucky too cuz i dun think i can"tahan" young kids...nt like 'them' lor.........

a pic of me n my cousin...we used to look alike when we are young....

tml is sch again........hw arghz i anyhow do sia...sum do half way or nt complete ...long holiday is always like that...always gt me to trouble......wanna slack leh...but proper sch abt to start liao...now is troubling with whether a not to change sub combi .......Bio or phy?? think both are no gd for me so either one is fine....but should i give up time to re learn physics again??....OMG..so fraustrating.......but anyway just as long as i dun gt into same class as u noe who can liao...oh ya....tml can see the OGL interview dw result le ba......hope i get in .......erm but nt someone lar....i noe i very bad lor...but no choice...:X.......haiz..

today end here ba..tml gt sch so no matter how still must slp...n i think the best way is to read bio b4hand cuz is a bit like sleeping pill:X....lol........

7th Feb 08 - CNY........

2008-02-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New year to all!.........lol
祝大家鼠年行大运。。。身体健康。。。万事如意。。。心想事成。。。笑口常开。。。学业进步。。。
think thats it.if want to write everything down......erm will be damn longwinded or wadever.....haha.....
well today i didn't turn up in sch which is so EXPECTED......lol....haiz so sad....well sad not becuz can't see performance in PJ...heard is lame...i am sad cuz i miss the chance to see my band"family members" miss u guys so so so much....esp my dear Michelle junior.....nvm.....Valentine eve i sure will turn up k...be a "santa clause" or wadever......haha....anyway Jia you guys....in band....to those who can't "tahan" liao.......erm just "kan kai " cuz oni a few more mths or so......i've consider very carefully liao.....beta dun go China with u all ba...firstly is cuz of exam ......secondly cuz is SUMMER overt there......OMG i sure will faint ......cuz of weather..thirdly.......i gt finacial problem lar....is so damn ex.......lastly....no ppl want to go.....so i dun wan be the extra....

times really does FLY......JAE abt to start soon ....all ppl going different ways le....then will be damn bz ba.......hope our friendship can last very long n not affected by the time n our "busy stuff'"......meaning when need to play still must gather n play.........haha.......:P......
Jia you everyone in our new yr..........n do well in everything u does.......

5th feb 08__1 day before Chinese NEw yR eve.....

2008-02-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

wadever......haiz..go sch also will kena scolding....walao....u guys "ping ping li"...gt such thing de meh? today de day actually very good n nice but cuz of this..now feeling damn lousy......
well today gt nth special juz discussing tml wanna go sch anot...at first all say dun wan but end up still wanna go ....lol.....so lame right

well stupid zhi juz FORCE me read a passage or wadever it is called ........quite touching ....is really reflecting on lives.....lol.....is true wad......that is wad we human beings are like...WHEN WE LOST SOMETHING,THEN WE LEARN TO TREASURE IT....hahax..think gt no use liao lar....is like the thing is already lost and all we can do is regret ? if that is the case why not just treacure it at the first place.....??is qite confusing i noe........:p

All i can do or say is ZHI jia you........lol........u shuld now why lar hor......cuz is a *"bu neng shuo de mi mi"erm...doubt it is just said that for fun......
i juz end here ba.....u noe...with a lousy day or wadever...nite everyone.....
Happy CNY in advance.........

Beginning of Journey...........

2008-02-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

well well.i'm back to blogging liao...crap isn't it ...cuz i delete n make new one again n again...hope i won't have to do so for this... hahax
i think i posting cuz i wanna improve on languages lor...so lame excuse right? but bear with me arghz...in order to make it come true ...erm i mean improve languages...i might sumtime post in CHinese ...so erm ...u all noe lar...dun think i biased or wad can liao...saw lao tay n lao kai de blog...think is nice n still the same lar...only 1 wrd can describe...LAME!!!!!i think others agree with me bahx......i think i really nth beta to do lor to say the truth.....Oh ya...i may not be updating this blog very often cuz u noe i a BIG busy PERSon...esp now...
wee first post end here ba.......:P