Sunday, November 29, 2009






*all these pic are adapted from baidu tieba

isn't this grand!

pure sapphire blue~

can't help but to love it!

SJ forever!




Wednesday, November 25, 2009
^^
went to watch Gokusen :the movie with Beat n Tay together at Yishun GV
haha...
really enjoyed it...
the story is still almost the same as its series
still revolving abt the teacher loving her students and protecting them...
the start of the movie was really funny...
can't resist to laugh...
but coming to the end...
it is very motivating and encouraging...
sort of like making ppl having the urge of becoming a teacher...
haha

have sort of gotten out from the emo mood...
at least i'm able to laugh n enjoy my day^^
so ppl...
just stop worrying abt me ba...
is not easy to forget such things
so just give me a bit more time to regain myself...
but still i know
life moves on....
no matter how much i wan to revert it...
*sigh.....

starting to seek for job liao
in case gt nagging again
perhaps they just dun no what i've been through
but
i think is better to kp myself being preoccupied than having rest~
ya
imagination will run wild when I'm relaxing~

start to pick up books to read
erm
Twilight...
haha
i'm sort of like damn slow right?
yaya..i know....
just gotten the bk from beat today
n
within 2hrs...i've completed almost half of the bk...
should have requested for the 2nd bk too
haiz....

starts to kp a diary le
cuz have a gut feel that i should start to pen down my thoughts n feelings
...
nobody knows nor could they predict what will happen tml...
perphaps by penning them down
at least other will actually be able to know what is within me
n what have i yet to accomplish
even if i leave suddenly from this world...

not to scare u ppl ~
isn't it all just fated
Death is just part of our cycle...
it is just the time that matters...
it will really be great to learn to accept that very fact
never run away from it...
it actually help sometimes by learning that
cuz it really motivates one to strive for own happiness
sometime learn to live for yourself even though it seems selfish
relying too much on others will actually bring only pain n sufferings
always think positive
but not to fail to think of the future n consequences of all act that u performed
live with consciences...with dignity ...with pride

NEVER EVER HARM YOURSELF
OR BID GOODBYE WITHOUT WARNING
IT BRINGS PAIN TO THOSE WHO ARE LEFT BEHIND
..........
it really does~
belief me~
it is no as easy as it seems to have the wound heal
perphaps some are too longlasting
while some will leave behind a scar that could never be removed



Monday, November 23, 2009
失去了
得到了
是喜是悲
太乱了
不想弄明白

似乎一直在缠绕着我
患得患失的感觉真的很讨人厌
以为会到此为止
原以为
再次面临失去
会是很久以后的事了

太高估自己了~

时间它不会等人
更加不可能倒流
曾自己还在呼吸时
感受四周吧
尽情地享受每一刻
怀着感激的心情去度过每一天
因为
今天不知明天事
不要带着不该有的遗憾离开这世界
只向前看吧
不要再回首了
不要在徘徊不定了
锁定一个目标
一直一直的向前走
不要再给自己任何后悔的机会
千万不要再把“如果”、“想当初”。。。等垃圾词汇挂在嘴边了
认认真真地
把其他人不能享有的未来
一同抗下
同他们一起活下去。。。



已经告诉自己要坚强了
昨天为了你
流了几乎一天的泪
想对你说句抱歉~
因为知道你应该会不喜欢
认识你是一种缘分
但,
只能怪着缘分太过短暂
不管如何
不知你会否听到或甚至看到
在这里
真的想对你说的是
很高兴能与你结为朋友
虽让不是一份很坚固的友谊

毕竟大家所拥有回忆真的很珍贵
好的与不好的都不重要了
因为真的无法再一起回味了

真的无法控制自己的眼泪
似乎感到它快留下来了~
但是
我会拼命的将它们收回的
我想要用笑容来送你
只想用笑容来祝福你
祝福你在那美丽的国度里永远的幸福
祝福你在那儿能一直开心的展现你的笑容
真切的祝福你

今生的缘分
其实还未了
我们会在相遇的
也许会需要时间

再次与你相遇的时候
要记得我哦
就好像我会永远将你放在心里的某一角落
当无助时
才会将我们一同的回忆拿出来回味
直到我再次与你相遇时
再次用这些回忆来“欺负”你
就如当年一样

会好好的过的
会好好珍惜与你的回忆的
会好好的认真的过着我的每一天的


所以
虽让我很不愿意
虽让我很舍不得
虽让我真的很不甘心

我还是只能说







再见我的朋友~
要一路的走好
好好照顾自己
期待与你再次的相见
请安息吧~



Sunday, November 22, 2009
告诉我
只是同名同姓吧!
碰巧同一个组。。。
同岁而已!
。。。。。。。

我不要!
不要了!
为什么一直要面对失去!
我们还没来得及再联系啊!
本来想考完试后在叙旧的。。。
又再次的让我面对这项悲剧。。。
心好痛
好不甘
谁来告诉我。。。。

小时候的记忆
不断涌现。。。
欺负你的
枪我食物的
聚在一起说鬼故事的
一起玩的、闹的。。。
一起模拟的未来。。。
你说过要赚很多很多钱的啊!
但,
为何一切就如此的断了。。。
10年的缘分就此宣告破灭了。。。

还能在相信命运吗?
不知道了。。。
累了
倦了。。。
想要遗忘。。。
真希望只是一场噩梦。。。。



歌曲拥有治疗心灵的效用
听着那一首又一首悦耳的歌曲
扣人心弦及优美的旋律
动人的歌声。。。
这才是真正的音乐^^



Thursday, November 19, 2009
wondering should change the background song><



时间过得还真是快
还剩下2天就脱离了^^
应该是开心的吧?
其实,担忧的心情是更多的
应该会满遭的~
但,付出了努力了
强求也不能改变一切
认真地祈祷吧...

不知道最近怎么了
做事情都没劲
有时还在想
那件事情所带来的后遗症到底有多大?
似乎无法估计
无法衡量...
连人带心的
都将所有的力气与精力都抽去了
~无力啊!

近日都没有东西能引起兴趣
毫无斗志的、毫无野心的
也许会一直如此的苟活吧~
ㅋㅋ
感觉自己好像上了年纪般
否则哪来这么多心得~

太高估自己了吗
还是看低了自己
还未找出一个明亮的出路呢
感觉仍是被扔弃在一片湿漉漉的黑洞里
挣扎着...呐喊着...堕落着...
会听到呼唤吧~
会见死不救吗?
祈祷有用吗?
一切能够挽救吗?

不知道
不知道
不知道!

那个曾经说过
奇迹不会从天而降,唯有努力才会获得奇迹的人
你在哪?
"回得来吗?"
好似不能了....怎么办?
继续躲藏吧....
继续当个鸵鸟吧~
逃吧!
远离这里吧...
但,
"放得下吗?"
矛盾吧~
><
终究还是人类啊~
害怕寂寞的脆弱的人类...
悲愤....
是自暴自弃了的说~



Wednesday, November 4, 2009
have not been using comp for a while~
recently bz studying...
stress arghz!

just on this comp for like an hour
and almost gt "heart attack"~
OMG!
within this dunno how mny hrs
without looking at news of TVXQ...
i wonder how to tolerate it...
their news are over all kpop website...
news of them disbanding~
news of them breaking up~
OMG!!!
how can that be!
couldn't belief it!
TVXQ is one of the oni few bands
that i truly feel they have the potential
They are true singers than what we called idol!
they have great vocals
great dancers
great rappers
most imptly...great harmonization n TEAMWORK!

that interview!
damn it!
hope it was fake...!
how can that be~

5 yrs living tgt...
training n working tgt
shedding tears of joy n caring for one another
thru'out all these yrs
it is all just for show....
how abt their friendship?
JJ,JS n UKnow have known each other for so long
ever since trainee life....
hopefully all those news are fake~
they are still Together!

P.S: this is just my own opinion,take it or leave....

if those are for real,
just can't help wondering
....is it really true that relationship is just a burden
n not worth cherishing
why are there betrayal n hate in this world...
wondering wondering......





~always keep the faith
hopes till the end~



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