lalala.......how long have i not been posting??........lol.........i actually lost count myself
NVM.....oh dear ppl.......i'm back to my own blog le cuz i 'd quit from the gp-blog.
though not there le.......but still can come over here to look for my own updates
Not sure when will i set up the pau-factory.....lol.....if that is set up...think this poor blog will be closed down soon.....haha..if that is the case, i had actually closed down 5 blogs in total...
all due to my laziness
Just finished GP ytd n i feel that i'm writing rubbish.....n i really hope i can juz pass.......
Exam is just starting out so must study during this break lar
quite busy also due to lessons n will be doing grp studying with frens they all
n also cannot forget to play......hehe...i mean relax.....
i think i got myself involved with too many things le:p......dunno why........but actually i am still living n sort of able to cope cuz i dun feel stress
however, recently went thru quite alot n dunno why got a very very weird feeling
ask me what is that....i also cannot tell u cuz i dun even noe myself.
It is not the stress or frustrated or tiredness feel but juz out of sudden i feel like not wanting to care
abt anyone
When ppl were joking n laughing .......i couldn't share their lamenes...or wadever.....
i feel like i'm sort of like a 3rd person watching them from other side...
though with alot of frens surrounding me, i still feel very empty inside...
recently also if no one want to pay attention on me, i will kick up a fuss
feeling damn angry n frustrating
is quite terrible actually....n am i really that uncontented.........
Ytd i think i quite bad also...seing a few ppl sitting 950 but wanting to alight at woodlands point de stop...yup i told them the bus is going directly to checkpoint instead of bus stop
but i didn't warn them about the need to seek help from officers inorder to get out from checkpoint......
making things worst...i evn kp a look out of them to see them being embarrassed......n i still can feel like...wow....a new show...finally something that bighten me up ytd
i feel i'm quite childish after that.....n very bad also.....but nvm......
hope that such feel can bypass soon.......perhaps i need time....or maybe is because
i walked in to wrong environment
or
perphaps is juz i can't get to understand myself n can't get them to understand me
i wrote a mail wanting to send to this gal ...to tell her that i want to give her a chance to prove
my n the class impression on her is wrong
but i dunno should i sent it out.......
none of my closest fren do actually noe that i was being left alone in my former class before...
haha....maybe is becuz i'm too irritating or selfish or juz i'm tooo unsocialised
back then no one did actually tell me what is wrong....no one even bother to help me......
i can still rmb those ppl faces after knowing that i might be in same class with them again.....
all were like...."OMG....not again"
but i manage to escape ...manage to get out of that lonely world n started out to be cautious.....
to be too imaginative......always have the feel that ppl were talking behind my back...or were they only making use of me ... haha.....is a bit too over but
i trusted no one even if they are closed n willing to share their secret with me....
not that i want to be selfish but it just seem.......i dun wish to get hurt no more...
hence,i was thinking should i help her since i could understand how she feel...or juz keep
like nth happens........