Monday, June 14, 2010
都快将这里个遗忘了!><
最近忙碌于思考未来的方向
已经做好了决定
得到了好多人的支持
但,
唯独只有你们仍然不认同我...

也许是自己有些些的自私,
我真的好想好想到外头走一走
不想一辈子只留在这里
或许
我会受伤,会失败
但我相信只有经历了这一切我才能够更加坚定
梦想之在我眼前啊...
只需你们点头,
我才能毫不犹豫
毫无负担及罪恶的向梦想前进...


成绩不好的我本来不可能有这种机会...
笔试时真的没有把握会得到~
也许真的是老天给我的一个机会
若我真的错过了
那一辈子的遗憾感会纠缠着我不放的...
真的希望你们能懂~



Sunday, April 4, 2010
SO WHAT IF THERE IS A CASE BEFOREHAND!
HALO!
I SPEAKING ABOUT 2 INDIVIDUALS!
AM I NOT ALLOW TO MAKE MY OWN CHOICE !
EVEN IF I NOT GONNA MAKE IT,
IT WILL BE MY PROBLEM THEN!
STOP COMPARING 2 INDIVIDUALS of DIFFERENT CHARACTERS!
%^&^*^&%@#@@$#%^..........

WHY MUST U PEOPLE CREATE SO MANY THINGS FOR ME!
I ALMOST CAN PERSUADE THEM TO LET IN.......
DAMN IT!
DAMN IT!
FEEL DAMN FRUSTRATED NOW!



Friday, April 2, 2010
放手~
好难。。。
回忆终究只能是回忆?
是否会回到大家的身边?



路,
不是我们想象中那么的平坦。
规划,
终会有变数,即使再如何努力的防备。
梦,
总有破灭的一天。
愿,
只能藏于心底,幻想着兑现的那一天。
情谊,
会有淡去的一天,
天下无不散之宴席。。。
坚持,
终究会有软化的时刻。
忍耐,
总有一个限度。








一切的一切
毫不真实~
但愿你开心就好,健康就好。。。
其余的让大家为你操心,为你扛下。。。
再大的苦难都会随时间而消逝;
彩虹在大雨过后总会出现。



Saturday, March 27, 2010
well well,
i was officially back from SJ SUPERSHOW 2 for abot 1 week~
an incredible liveshow that I actually went for and an incredible experience i'd gotten XD

SUPER SHOW 2 in MALAYSIA 2010(DAY1)

I arrived in KL on the 19th March together with the SG ELF,
it took about 4 hours of the coach ride,
was totally excited throughout the journey as they were playing SHOW 1 DVD on the bus~
Although i was damn tired , i was not able to sleep.
We checked into our hotel at about 2 to 3 +pm.
Sincethe hotel that SJ members stayed were near ours( 7 min walk),
so me and yiwei accompanied by 2 new friends met on that day,
walked to their hotel,
hopefully able to catch a glimpse of the members.
We waited for about 2 to 3 hours at the lobby,
and more of the fans actually gathered there.
There were also many FALSE ALARMs about their arrival during our waiting time.
The 4 of us almost missed the chance of seeing them on that day as SJ actualloy entered the hotel by the side door.
Luckily, when they about to set off for their rehearsal, we managed to
squeezed into the crowd and I was really lucky enough to see a few members.
Heechul oppa was the closest person i saw,
and from far, i saw Eunhyuk oppa, Eeteuk oppa,
Henry, Donghae oppa~
I didn't realised that I actually managed to record some of them into my video
and was totally surprise to see that Ryeowook oppa was in there too^^
It was kind of a crazy experience....blocked by securities...squeezed into a group of crazy fans
who were actually shouting n yelling for their fav members...

After all the squeezing n pushing, the 4 of us went for a dinner at a shopping mall~
then we proceed back to hotel so Yiwei n I can rest a bit before the queue up session....
at about 10.30pm, yiwei n I took a cab from hotel to the stadium,
almost thought we gt cheated as we were damn not familiarised with KL.
Even though we arrived at the stadium,
we were required to walk to the actual place where concert was held.
On our way in search of the place, we met some Msia ELF who were also
going to the stadium...so lucky of us :p
so ended up, there are 5 of us (all gals) walking in the dark at about 11.30pm
at Putra Jalil stadium wanting to find our direction to the concert hall.
When we actually reached the carpark for us to queue up, it was already 12am,
well~ended up realising there were already quite a number of fans waiting already.
As we bought the rock pitt ticket, it will be necessary to BOOK a good place to stand,
so we joined in the queue with some SG ELF. There were a few China ELFs in front of us,
and Thai ELFs behind us.
We sat throughout the whole night,cannot do anything
cuz is pitched dark.
I took some sleep lar...
first time in my life sleeping outside a concert hall...erm...
unlike Camping, is somehow or rather a weird experience.haha :x
will get killed if it was known by my parents and yiwei's mom...haha
We queue for about 6 hrs or 7 hrs before the next batch came in to take our place...
so we went back to hotel to take breakfast, shower n SLEEP !



SUPER SHOW 2 in MALAYSIA 2010(DAY2)-concert day

Expected us to wake up in the afternoon for a bit of food before proceeding to the
concert hall again, but was too TIRED n so we did not have the choice but to empty our stomach and rush to join in with the SG ELF to take the coach to the stadium.
It was about 3pm when we arrived.
There were a lot of people there...
some were queuing for merchandises,
some were busy exploring the place to put banners( or to show off rather)...
haha
saw a banner with a big sign:HYUK lov HAE!(lol)..
the banners were really big n interesting.
Unable to take it as there were too MANY PEOPLE,
i totally did not move a bit to other place to search for food or toilet(lucky i wasn't that urgent :P),
so i totally sat at the queue waiting for the entrance into the hall.
It was like 3-4 hrs of wait..but time pass by really fast...
there were commotions n happenings while we were queuing.
we also chatted with some of the SG ELFs members to pass time,
so it wasn't really that bored.
6pm~
1 hour more to the show....
the door finally OPENED!
we were damn excited...
I almost can't get into the hall due to the CAMERA!
lol
but then i used a bit of wits lar,
cuz the security wasn't really that tight...
n i managed to sneaked myself n MY 2 cameras in...
yahoo~! ><

The rock pitt was really damned empty when I was inside the main hall~
thanks to our efforts!
lol.
Less than about half n hour, the rock pitt gradually
was filled up...
it wasn't that fun when so many ppl were squeezing you hoping to replace
your position which was just BESIDE THE STAGE!
we waited n waited~
sang some songs which were played damn soft that only the rock pitt ppl can hear...
chanting....
waiting...
jeering....(false alarm)
chanting....
chatting...
exclaiming....
erm...some quarelling(obviously is not me)... :p
haha
FINALLY at 8pm sharp.......
the stage light went off....
I was TOTALLY AMAZED!
the sea of saphhire blue which i could only view on photos by fan
were RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME...
although it was not entirely perfect....
but it was really PRETTY!
unable to express my feeling when i saw that sea of blue...
Then VCR was being played.
the crowd was getting high...
screams n exclamations were heard when SUPER JUNIOR members
apperaed in the VCR...
Music started...
A MAN IN LOVE
was expecting them to come out from main stage...
but
to our surprise...to everyone surprise...
MEMBERS were apperaing from different entrance from the audience seats.
Suddenly a lot of commotions and Excitement were followed on...
and I was yet to get ready , Eunhyuk was right infront of US or i can say infront of ME dancing...
damn charismatic, can't take my eyes off him...
haha
members were gathering at the main stage...singing n dacing
....too chaotic le when members were walking pass the us to the main stage....
Fans were literally pushing in front....:p
SUJU then continued their performances by running around the stage with songs...
( erm Msia concert was kind of unique as they seemed to change some of the songs they sang)
The mood was being up...ppl were gettin higher n higher...
after all these fast n dance songs,
it is time for SOLO...
the most memorable solo were Eetuek oppa and Donghae oppa ~
Heechul oppa 's solo really is cool...
he is really PRETTY...
the performances were really great
throughout the show,
My favourite was KRY+ Sungmin 's
i 'm totally impressed by KRY's live....
their vocals were damn impeccable.
LOVE YESUNGIE~ ><
hehe...
they also sang Shining star,
whereby ELFs turned on their white torch
making the whole stadium glittering with bright white lights
just like stars.
as usual, Eeteuk oppa cried><...
oppa~ uljima(lol)
the rest of the members were enjoying themselves.
Sungmin was incredible...
he went to the audience to get 5 of the torches and wore it on his fingers
and also SHOWING OFF! lol
he is really cute...(although his hair is...):x
Kyuhyun sat at the stage near rock pitt A,
was able to see him very close up,
he also wore a torch while singing.
while he was singing, someone actually threw a sweet to him
but when he opend up to EAT,
A LOT of SWEETS were FLYING towards him...lol
hopefully he was not being hit...
n after the song, he threw his torch off the stage...
can imagine lar...many ppl fighting for it><
haha

when SUPER JUNIOR M was out,
there was really a lot of cheers and loves given to Zhoumi n Henry.
The 2 of them were really feeling appreciative from their expression.
It must be one of their memorable performances after the Shanghai's concert incident.
They sang the n performed<>
there was really something missing in their performance...
HanKyung was not with them... :(
Henry solo was really superb...his dance is not as bad as the 4 dances in SUJU,
but i prefer his violin performance during Heechul's solo.><
after a few more songs,
was out...
haha...
I can't take my eyes off Ryeowook's oppa...
he is REALLY...REALLY BEAUTIFUL...
too bad he isn't a gal...
he is cute~
the performance was really a success as evryone was high.
was really interesting...
the hilarious musical by SUJU brought quite a lot of laughter...
Shindong oppa n Heechul oppa are cute...
still can rmb the scene which Eetuek came out ...haha
............
............
............
after their songs n dance,
the concert came to an end...
Finally it was the ENCORE
...
CARNIVAL...
i was busy blowing the bubbles...
n SUNGMIN came over to our side again....
he is SUPER DUPER cute when one of the admin of SG ELF handed him the whole box of the
bubble,
he was SHOCKED at first n then he determined not getting the box n
instead he took 1 of it
n started blowing~
the rest of the members were having fun...
the songs remind me of KANGIN oppa...
cuz it was written by him...

WATER GUN fight seems like a must to the members....
EUNHYUK aim was damn good lar...
i got shot by him twice...haish...was getting a bit wet only
but...
but...
afer one sip of the drink....
Shindong came over to pour the rest of his water at the crowd....
n thx to the pushing,
I got wet again....
my right shoulder sleeve was totally wet by the water n the water gun...
both at same place...><
but, it is OKAY!
lol
Siwon n heechul were at the other side of the stage,
i actually saw them having "war" with the fans...haha
it was like damn funny especially when they won the "FIGHT"...
a lot of items were being thrown off the stage during the encore
i almost caught something throw down by Eetuek ><
haish....damn sianz
lol
I saw the "violence" side of Eeteuk oppa...
he just torn apart the plastic cover of a bedroom shoes(well i dunno what is that called)
n took off his own shoe to try on that.The shoes was cute lar n he dance pajama party with the shoes.
I thought he will keep in but in the end he just kicked off the shoe to the audience...
again...
the audience are FIGHTING for the shoes again...
haha
The concert ended in a very high note...
everyone really enjoyed the concert n 3 hours was not enough...
They thank all the fans who were at the concert and also hope that they will visit
MALAYSIA for their supershow 3...
Eeteuk oppa also told us to wait for their fourth album~
they walked the entire concert hall thanking n bowing to the fans
...
it really made them feel like a humble rookie ...
treasuring every of their fans n supporters.
It was really unbearable to leave as we were not sastified....
but I will be waiting for their next show...
n hopefully by then
I could see 13 members on the stage...
together with Kibum oppa, Kangin oppa and also HanKyung oppa.....

Oppa~
jebal...
come back fast...
i want the 13 members stage...
although i may never get to see that....
but i will still wait for the miracle to happen...><

After the concert...
all i can say is that...
the members don't differ as much as what we see them on videos
I was feeling a bit fake when i saw them infront of me...haha
but the real them did carry the charisma which we can't see or feel when they are on videos.
Frankly speaking,
Yesung oppa did look a bit different,
he is more NICER LOOKING in real life,
much thinner .
SHINDONG oppa is NOT FAT AT ALL...lol
he just look a bit big size...
i dun consider that as FAT if u were to see him real as a person.><

LASTLY,
the concert was really a great one, n memorable for me as it was the 1st concert i ever attended.
if SHOW3 is starting,
i won't be hesistating to buy the tickets again...but i will try the no.seats ba...
rock pitt a bit....haha...too much experience le.
hopefully by then, more of their supporters will be able to go for the show 3.
I'm really anticipating more of their CP time....
haha
KANGTEUK
HANCHUL
EUNHAE........

SUPER SHOW 2 in MALAYSIA 2010(DAY3)

LAST DAY FOR us to be in KL.
i was totally worn up after the concert n slept throughout the whole night till the morn.
was suppose to check out the hotel at 12pm...
after a quick breakfast,
me n yiwei went for a walk as we still have some time before leaving...
when we passed by their hotel
fans were gathering there...
n also
because yiwei was disappointed as her Kyuhyun did not appear frequently in front of her,
we went up to wait for them again~
haish
there goes my last few hrs in KL....
we waited for a abt an hr and i had to DRAG yiwei off,
assuring her that we will come back after we load our stuff on the bus
...
so we walked back to hotel to check out again...
this time informing 2 of our new frens we going over to the hotel
so end up...
4 of us went to the hotel again
waioted for 45mins
but SJ still not out...
I, again had to DRAG yiwei off...
haha
too bad lar....
but still need go home...
As all of us were very tired ,
i slept a bit on the coach ...
so then drop off near segamat to buy some goodies back home...
n headed back to S'pore...
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Sunday, January 31, 2010
心情的起伏度还真大啊~
从没有心情到如此的纠结。。。
要的是什么已经不知道了~

也许时间会让人认清一切。。。
但愿,
祈求,
盼望。。。

呵呵~
感觉好悲哀
是为什么呢?



Wednesday, January 27, 2010
somtimes things are just very unpredictable...
can't help but just wonder who is really true to you...

is sort of like an instinct, a feeling that surround you
telling you that ppl are hating or mocking at you.

Perhaps it is just that i'm too sensitive...
maybe it is just that i'm too annoying n irritating...
or is it myself which lack of the confidents to face this world?

i hated betrayal...
i hated lies...
i hated surprise...
i hated being fooled around...
i hated not to be able to predict...

always guessing,
always predicting,
always act b4 others can hurt me...
such always are really wearing me out...

i'm currently waiting...
waiting for a chance to escape from such reality...
waiting to live in my own promising world...

just
not to be hurt anymore



Saturday, January 16, 2010
FINALLY
I'm able to realise one of my mini dreams...
can't wait for Mar 20
...
Super Junior
I'm coming....:P




must save up...$$$$



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